Uhhhh

Alright so here i go...

First of all i love my in laws. ( i guess thats what you would call them) I adore them, and they are always around when we need help. Just keep that in mind.. lol

Lets first start back uhh a year and half ago. Barb and Scott took on the responsibility of having Barbs nieces, two little girls. A 10 year old and a 3 year old. It was such a great thing for the girls. They are in a better home and better place. Im so happy she did that..

BUT they are her responsibility.

Logan, Chad, and myself would help when we could. So pretty much we help everyday. Monday they would go to daycare, Tuesday daycare, Wednesday Logan would watch them, Thursday I would watch them, and Friday Barb was off so she would watch them. So really Barb had it pretty easy with who was watching them and not having to pay for daycare.. Good for her but i still had to take Connor to daycare and pay, cause it was to much on the boys to watch all 3 kids. And i totally understood that. Logan would say just keep Connor here with me so we dont have to pay. But i know when i have all the kids at once i get crazy haha. So i didnt want more on Logan or Chad, so i took Connor to daycare. Thats my fault.

Okay Connor and Gracie are starting pre-school here in about a month. We had everything planned out who was taken and picking the kids up from school. We had it so the kids werent going from here to there back to here and everywhere. But now that i have this new job everything had went down hill with mine and Barb relationship.....

Anyways you all know i got a new job at Conncet 3. Yay for me right.. Everyone was happy for me other then Barb and Scott. Wanna know why...

I messed up everything for them. Now They have to take Gracie to daycare and have to find someone to watch her. Oh so i thought

When i called Barb to tell her i got the job all she said was......"Oh Great now i have to find someone else to help me.. Thanks alot"..

Umm lets just say i cried. Now for what she said but for how she said it to me. NOt once has to she said that she is happy for me or congrats Chelby your doing better for you and Connor. NOT ONCE has Scott said anything to me. Every sense i got this job Barb and Scott really havent been talking to me. So im not talking to them.

But last Monday they sat me and Logan down and said. Logan you are watching Gracie Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and on the days you have to work ( everyday other then Tuesday) you have to take her to Scott work ( that is 20 min away from Logan work) so we dont have to pay for a daycare... I got pissed and walked away.

The reason why i got mad, is cause Barb buy the girls clothes EVERYDAY, shoes every weekend, goes on trips, dinner all the time. She has money for daycare!!!!!!! But she wont take her to daycare so Logan now has the responsibility of taken care of Gracie. He has to get her up, get her dress, get her fed, and get her off to Scott, off to pre school, everything Logan has to do now.. Logan has to take Connor also to day care and pre school but its different when its your own son. Yes i know he is going up that way anyways but its the demanding that pisses me off, Logan HAS to take Gracie.

SORRY I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A BITCH!

The thing is Gracie ISNT our responsibility, we didnt take this on so we have to raise another 3 year old. We didnt pick to do this but guess what we have to! not our responsibility.!!!!

I know i should be all upset that Logan has to watch her all day everyday, thats his choice. But now he doesnt get to spend much time with his own SON cause he has to do this and do that for Gracie and Barb. Wonderful right.. NOT Its causing problems with Logan and I, cause i think he is letting her WALK alllll over him. I understand once or twice a week, that isnt a big deal at all.. But every damn day, that a little to much right, or am i wrong.????

I know im a little crazy but i has been bugging me for the last two week. Uhhhhhh.

So needless to say im upset and hurt that 1: they are not happy i got a new job and 2: They are making Logan take on the responsibility for taken care of Gracie.

So like a said before I'm not talking much to them. Barb and Logan got in a huge fight cause Logan stood up for himself and said that he doesn't want to watch her everyday. He would like a day or two off for him self or for him and Connor.. Lets just said Barb kicked Logan out of the house.

And that's where we are now..

Yes i understand that when i need help I'll ask, but that's maybe an hour here or a night there. But Not all day everyday thing. You guys totally think I'm the biggest bitch in the world, but I'm so hurt over all this. Its just hurts to know they aren't happy for me!

I'M JUST REALLY HURT and maybe the reason why I'm making a huge deal over this watching Gracie is cause I'm hurt. But I'm doing better for myself and I'm doing better for Connor. I don't understand why someone wouldn't be happy about that. I don't understand.