Big Steps

Here i go again talking about my new job.

Lame right.

Well your still going to hear about it.

So a WEEK... ONE WEEK from today will be my last and final day here at Tooele Transcript. Kinda sad huh. I have mixed feeling about it. Im sad but yet so overly excited. Im leaving my first job and going to something that im not sure im going to like (really i know ill like it but still), Not sure if they are going to want to keep me, a million and one things are going on in this crazy mind of mine. Transcript has been just wonderful to me, i couldn't of asked for sure a great first job. They were always so easy with taken days off, switching days and dealing with family issues. Wonderful right. I was very spoiled, i had it easy.

So with this new job i Start August 29, and Connor Starts Pre-school September 6. and he also has an open house on August 30..

So that means I, his mommy will miss he very first day of School. A huge step in Connor life, his mommy is going to miss. Im crying as i write this, i cant seem to get over the fact that ill miss such a big thing in his life. I will never get to take him to School or pick him up from school. I have no idea how this job is with family or with missing days, but i just hurt knowing that i wont see him with his cute little pack back, school clothes on, and a great big kiss from my pre-schooler. I wont have that. Ahh im such a baby, but thats MY baby going to school.

I just want to remember the day with his mommy and daddy taken him to school, i want dont him to ask 10 years down the road, "Why weren't you there with me mommy" Ahh. :(

I know with this new job its going to be GREAT of my family, its going to make it so we can do something with my life. I know its going to be good.

But a mommy NEVER wants to miss the first day of anything. Never wants to miss that. And guess what THIS mommy will miss a Big step in my little mans life.

Who knows maybe i can do something about it. I mean i have to do a 8 week training class, they have 2 classes a day 7am-3pm and 3pm-11pm. Im doing the 7am-3pm so maybe i can see if i can just for one day go to the 3pm-11pm. I mean i wont miss a class, i will just be going at a later time. I dont know maybe something like that will work, but i dont know how "Good" they are with that. I guess in a week i'll find out.

As of right now this mommy will be so upset and crying all day of September 6. It will be a very sad day for me. But yet i'll be one proud momma.

Can you believe that THIS baby is going to be a pre-schooler..

It just seemed like 2 days ago i was taken these pictures of him.

Its hard to believe.

No i have this crazy 3 year old who is going to start making big steps in his life.

Ahh Mommy loves you Big boy.