Downer

Im sitting here at working think wow this is my LAST tuesday working here at the Transcript. Its totally weird for me to think this time next week, ill have a brand new job and new people i see everyday. Weird right. I know im making a huge deal over this but its a pretty big step in my life. Big one. I love working here, i love the people, i just love it here (most of the time).

I guess im just scared to start something new, meet new people, im not an outgoing person, i never have been. I may seem like it but im never the first person to start up a conversions, im very shy until i get to know you. So im scared that i'll get to know no one. haha. I guess with my starting this new job i need to become more outgoing and get out of my comfort zone, i need to be more crazy lol

So 6 days till i start my new chapter in my life. I have to wake up at 4:30 AM to get up and get out the door by 6:00AM. When i get off work Logan will just be getting to work, so we wont see each other much cause by the time he gets home from work ill be wanting to go to bed to wake up early again.. I have to miss taken Connor to and from pre-school, i have to miss my wonderful Tuesday and Thursday with my handsome little man, miss getting him ready for the day and making him breakfast and getting my morning kiss goodbye. I woke be able to wake him up anymore, miss all the crazy things he talks about in the morning, ill miss so many things. BUT i know what im doing it going to be great! After missing all the things with Connor i know, im making a better life for US..

It makes me so sad to write this. Im such a BOOB.

It will be okay Chelby!!!!

Well still on the baby side. Over the weekend i had to say goodbye to 3 puppies. Well 2 of them i can see whenever i want. 1 went to a co-worker of mine (Kelly), and 1 other one went to an co-worker of my dad's. So with them i know i can see whenever i want. We all live so very close that i can.! That makes me happy. BUT yesterday i had to say goodbye to this little, fun, love able girl..

MY girl

I wanted to keep her so so bad! But we already have two dogs and we just couldnt. I know she went to a WONDERFUL home. 6 little kids to play with and a very loving mommy and daddy! But i can still be really sad. The new owners did say that they would email me updates on her and would make puppy play dates. But we will see. I told Logan last night that i would drive out there and give the money back plus some more just to have her back with me. She was my little shadow. Oh pooie i just need to grow up.

Sorry for the sad post!!