Sometimes you just feel like the world is crushing down on you.
As much as you want to be strong and have a good head on your shoulders it never happens like that.
Going to take a shower just to cry or to scream a little bit is the only way to make you feel a little better.
Most days i feel like i cant even remember how to smile or even to put a fake smile on my face. I have so many things going on right now in my life i don't know how i make it day to day. I just want to lay in bed and not move.
But then i look at my adorable son Connor and watch my belly move from my unborn son and know that i have to keep pushing for them. I have to try my hardest to make this life worth wild and worth the crazy ride. Cause in the end these two boys need their mommy more then anything. And if i keep dwelling on the little things i will miss the big things in my kids life's. I dont want to miss out on anything. I want to remember each day, like im re-living it over and over again! These boys are the reason i am who i am.
Im going to be strong for these two and i know no matter what happens in my life i know that i will always have my boys to be my support. I love you boys more then anything in this whole wide world!!!
I know there will always be trials and hills to get over but i didnt think i would have to deal with 99% of them all at once. But i will deal with them one at a time and get through this without any bruises.... well without any cuts.
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