You will always be my baby

Yesterday i was reading two of my good friends blog, and they have been blogging about how their little ones aren't little ones anymore. I went home and thought about it all night, all night. I was thinking about all the times when Connor was just a baby and how much i miss that. I sat on the computer all day today looking at all the picture i took of him while he was little. I cant believe in just a matter of 3 years how much things can change, how much my baby could change. My little boy isn't a baby anymore.

That was hard to swallow.

I miss sitting on the couch holding him while he slept in my arms, i miss the little coos when he would see me after he woke up.

Now i have this crazy little boy who i have to beg to get one little kiss from him, I have to ask him 20 times to answer my question. I have this little boy growing up before my eyes.

Its makes me so sad.

I miss giving him baths in the kitchen sink,

I miss his little hand always holding on to my finger,

I miss those smiles without any teeth.

I miss changing his little bum and feeding him while his eyes rolled back in his head..

I miss that

Now i have a crazy little 3 year old who doesn't listen to a word i say. lol I have this little independent boy who wants to do things his way or the highway. I have this little boy who wants to beat you up and wrestle you all night.

I love this.

I miss him being my baby, my tiny little baby who i could hold and cuddle anytime of the day.

I miss being able to sleep with him in my arms at night.

I miss feeling him kick inside my belly.

I miss the sweet little giggles at night while he was dreaming.

Oh how i miss him being a baby..

I have this wonderful big boy who is getting ready to start pre school, i have this big boy who wants to do everything on his own. I get mad, upset, my limits push, i cry, i need my break. But you know what i would do it a million times more, just to always have my baby. I miss so much of the time when he was just tiny. But i love the age he is at now (most of the time) i love being able to ruff house with him, i love hearing him say "I love you mommy", I love the bear hugs i get, the kisses on the cheek, I love being a mommy to this crazy, independent, wild BIG boy. I wouldn't trade it for the world, not one minute.

No matter how big he gets he will ALWAYS be my baby.. :)

My beautiful monkey. You are amazing. You fill each day with something new, giving me a reason to get through another day. The love I always ever wanted is standing right in front of my face in this perfect little body. You make it easy for me to sleep at night even when you are not with me. I feel your arms around my neck and your little voice saying "I love you." You make everything in the world that is bad feel like its peaceful. Every time I look at you, you make me want to cry tears of joy. I get the most excited when I see you achieve something and watching you grow. You have this smile that lights the universe. You have the best personality. You are such a joker, which makes harsh days become good ones. I am so grateful to have you in my life. You are the light in my heart. Thank you for picking me to be your mom!! I wouldn't have picked anyone else but you! I love you always and forever