BLAH

Okay so lately I've been pretty BLAH all week well all 2 weeks or so. It just seems like I'm always in a down mood. I just have a million and one things going on in this little mind and i hate it. I'm always worrying about money and if we are going to be able to make it till the next check.. Which we always make it with ease. But I'm always thinking about money.. I hate money and how much thing are these days.

Like a place. I'm almost 20 and still living with my mom. Not a big deal at all, i love my momma and she is always there to help me when i need it. But its just the though that i have a family and still living at home. I want a place for my self. I want to make it my own, all mine. lol BUT places here are at least $1000 a month and anything cheaper then that is only a 1 bedroom 1 bath. We need at least a 2 bedroom and 1 bath, but i don't think we would be okay with $1000 a month nope no way haha.

Then my car is a piece of crap. Its old but it still gets me from here to there. Where Connor car seat used to be the seat belt DON'T work it like wont lock. So i had to move Connor to the other side and guess what that side is starting to not work also, so i would have to move him to the middle. Great. Then i have like 200,000 plus miles on it, my speed don't work. Logan and i was driving next to each other one day and it said i was going 65 and then Logan said that he was only going 55, so its off by 10 that bugs me! On top of it, its a stick. I'm just so ready for a new car something i can trust with my son in the car with me. I don't want to worry about it all the time.

So what do i do.. Get a place or get a car... I'm not even sure what will happen, i cant do both. Even if i want both more then anything but i have to pick. CAR or PLACE of my own..?

DAMN money you always ruin things for me...

Sorry for going on and on about a place. its seems like I'm always in a down mood when I'm blogging but oh well...