Downer

Im sitting here at working think wow this is my LAST tuesday working here at the Transcript. Its totally weird for me to think this time next week, ill have a brand new job and new people i see everyday. Weird right. I know im making a huge deal over this but its a pretty big step in my life. Big one. I love working here, i love the people, i just love it here (most of the time).

I guess im just scared to start something new, meet new people, im not an outgoing person, i never have been. I may seem like it but im never the first person to start up a conversions, im very shy until i get to know you. So im scared that i'll get to know no one. haha. I guess with my starting this new job i need to become more outgoing and get out of my comfort zone, i need to be more crazy lol

So 6 days till i start my new chapter in my life. I have to wake up at 4:30 AM to get up and get out the door by 6:00AM. When i get off work Logan will just be getting to work, so we wont see each other much cause by the time he gets home from work ill be wanting to go to bed to wake up early again.. I have to miss taken Connor to and from pre-school, i have to miss my wonderful Tuesday and Thursday with my handsome little man, miss getting him ready for the day and making him breakfast and getting my morning kiss goodbye. I woke be able to wake him up anymore, miss all the crazy things he talks about in the morning, ill miss so many things. BUT i know what im doing it going to be great! After missing all the things with Connor i know, im making a better life for US..

It makes me so sad to write this. Im such a BOOB.

It will be okay Chelby!!!!

Well still on the baby side. Over the weekend i had to say goodbye to 3 puppies. Well 2 of them i can see whenever i want. 1 went to a co-worker of mine (Kelly), and 1 other one went to an co-worker of my dad's. So with them i know i can see whenever i want. We all live so very close that i can.! That makes me happy. BUT yesterday i had to say goodbye to this little, fun, love able girl..

MY girl

I wanted to keep her so so bad! But we already have two dogs and we just couldnt. I know she went to a WONDERFUL home. 6 little kids to play with and a very loving mommy and daddy! But i can still be really sad. The new owners did say that they would email me updates on her and would make puppy play dates. But we will see. I told Logan last night that i would drive out there and give the money back plus some more just to have her back with me. She was my little shadow. Oh pooie i just need to grow up.

Sorry for the sad post!!

Places.

6 Places..

Nashville

I love country and this is the place to go to learn everything you want to know! I would love to go and see all the different things there.

D.C

I want to learn everything about this place.

Paris

And everything around there, I want to take a month trip and just go to all the fun places all around there. Oh and i want this picture in my house a huge picture of this. I just love it.

Pocatello

Dont laugh, this is my home town and it is my favorite place to be. I love it here and would move back tomorrow if i could.

Bora Bora..

Oh i dream of going to this peace all the time. One day i will be bale to put my feet there. :)

Australia

This peace is just beautiful! I want to go live there for a few years.

Big Steps

Here i go again talking about my new job.

Lame right.

Well your still going to hear about it.

So a WEEK... ONE WEEK from today will be my last and final day here at Tooele Transcript. Kinda sad huh. I have mixed feeling about it. Im sad but yet so overly excited. Im leaving my first job and going to something that im not sure im going to like (really i know ill like it but still), Not sure if they are going to want to keep me, a million and one things are going on in this crazy mind of mine. Transcript has been just wonderful to me, i couldn't of asked for sure a great first job. They were always so easy with taken days off, switching days and dealing with family issues. Wonderful right. I was very spoiled, i had it easy.

So with this new job i Start August 29, and Connor Starts Pre-school September 6. and he also has an open house on August 30..

So that means I, his mommy will miss he very first day of School. A huge step in Connor life, his mommy is going to miss. Im crying as i write this, i cant seem to get over the fact that ill miss such a big thing in his life. I will never get to take him to School or pick him up from school. I have no idea how this job is with family or with missing days, but i just hurt knowing that i wont see him with his cute little pack back, school clothes on, and a great big kiss from my pre-schooler. I wont have that. Ahh im such a baby, but thats MY baby going to school.

I just want to remember the day with his mommy and daddy taken him to school, i want dont him to ask 10 years down the road, "Why weren't you there with me mommy" Ahh. :(

I know with this new job its going to be GREAT of my family, its going to make it so we can do something with my life. I know its going to be good.

But a mommy NEVER wants to miss the first day of anything. Never wants to miss that. And guess what THIS mommy will miss a Big step in my little mans life.

Who knows maybe i can do something about it. I mean i have to do a 8 week training class, they have 2 classes a day 7am-3pm and 3pm-11pm. Im doing the 7am-3pm so maybe i can see if i can just for one day go to the 3pm-11pm. I mean i wont miss a class, i will just be going at a later time. I dont know maybe something like that will work, but i dont know how "Good" they are with that. I guess in a week i'll find out.

As of right now this mommy will be so upset and crying all day of September 6. It will be a very sad day for me. But yet i'll be one proud momma.

Can you believe that THIS baby is going to be a pre-schooler..

It just seemed like 2 days ago i was taken these pictures of him.

Its hard to believe.

No i have this crazy 3 year old who is going to start making big steps in his life.

Ahh Mommy loves you Big boy.