Ready

I'm sure the reason why I'm writing this is cause my sister is pregnant..


But I'm totally baby hungry.

Not even kidding i know so many people who are pregnant or just had their little ones.

I just feel READY, I'm ready to take the next step in life with Logan. I want to move out, get married and get pregnant.

IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR...

I know, I know, if it was really that easy. That would be the life
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Logan and I still have alot to work on with our relationship, we need to get out on our own and yes i would like to be married.

I just think back to when i was pregnant with Connor and think about my labor and what not. I wasn't able to share that with my MAN. I was 16 and didn't tell anyone for a very long time. For the reason i wasn't able to enjoy it as much as i would liked of. I was ALONE. I didn't know how to deal with it and i was scared.

Then when i was in labor, i didn't get that daddy watching his baby come out, i didn't get the daddy crying, or the helping of my man. YES i did have my AMAZING MOMMY and my WONDERFUL SISTER helping me each second. But its not the same with the person who helped you. I know that the person i was with, would never be the person i want there. For so many reason, and it was the best choice i made. But its still the thought.

I would never take back the feeling i had when my baby boy was placed on my chest. I will never forget how amazing his little face was and how much love i could hold. I will never forget how grateful i am to have this little man in my life. Without him i don't know where i would be. Definitely not where i am right now!

BUT When i DO get pregnant, It will be TOTALLY be different. I will have pictures of my belly, updates, i will have Logan go to ever appointment with me, i will have him be there for the labor and the birth, everyone will know the second i find out I'm pregnant, and it will just be the greatest thing.. I cant wait. Its excites me that i will be able to have that amazing thing between Logan and I. I cant wait to feel the baby move inside of me, and just be a momma again.

I'm just READY!!!!

When did my baby grow up..