Friday, July 27, 2012

July 24th

So over the 24th we headed off to Lagoon..
This year was so much fun!
Connor was all into all the rides and wanted to ride everyone!
Before this year he was really scared to ride anything. But from what he said." Mom im 4 now and that means im a big boy and isnt scared of anything"
Well it was true. He wasnt scared of anything. It was just so fun to have a riding buddy.

And also i finally got my little sister to ride the sky coster!!
I have rode it about 3 times so i knew it was going to be fun. 
I was making it sounds so bad and scary. 
Breanna was ready to turn around and not ride it at all.
But we got up there and she had a blast. Its the best feeling. I love it.

Over all Lagoon was a blast. 
Connor and Austin loved it.


















Have faith




Dont Judge Me....
You cant hadle half of what ive delt with....
Theres a reason I do what I do.....
Theres a reason I'M who i am..

The past is the past and thats all i can say about that.
But life has taken a different turn. Im not sure if its going to be a good turn or something that is just going to hurt ME in the end.
Right now i believe that it will be for the best. But deep down i feel like its going to hurt me.
While i do this i know i will be hurt, mad, stressed, and just upset. BUT i have to think of whats going to be best of my SON.
And whats going to be best is what im doing now.
Im ready for this change and im ready for the new life.


Sometimes you hust have to stop
worrying,
 wondering
 & doubting...
Have faith that things will work out,
 maybe not how you planned,
 but just how they're meant to be...

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Just because i dont think anything is hotter then a man holding a baby.


And because Connor keeps asking me for a little sister
I just cant get enough of these pictuers!


I think we are all ready for a new baby!!!!!!
;)

July 19

So Thursday was my 21st birthday!!!
Yup I'm finally the big ol 21..

July 18th was my co-workers birthday so that day we all headed to Cafe Rio and had lunch!! It was great to get to know my co-workers a Little more.
Then we got back to the office and there were two cakes waiting for us! It was pretty awesome to spend out birthdays together..


Then on my Birthday. It was my dad off, but i had to run my dad around for his doctor appointments. After the Hanger we headed to Olive Garden and had lunch.. I ordered my first drink and DIDN'T even get carded. I was totally bummed out. But Lunch was great.
Than i had to work at the Transcript to train a new girl. So i worked and just hang out the rest of the night. It was a good day..


Then on Friday Breanna and myself headed out to go shopping. We were gone for about 2 hours. When we got home we had a big surprise waiting for us!!
Torie and her family came up.
I know i know i just left them, but MAN i missed them like crazy.
It was really a great surprise.

Saturday night was my party night. My whole family was here so i knew it would get a little crazy. Both my brothers wanted to get me so drunk. But it wasn't me that got drunk. It was my brothers. Haha. It was just so nice to have my family here with me.
My birthday was amazing and just perfect.
Still to this day i have not got carded!



 CHEERS

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Liebster Award

My BESTIE Jennie over at Our Family Of Four Tagged me for the Liebster Award...
From what her blog says Liebster Award is German for sweet, kind, lovely, endearing and welcome. It is an award for up and coming bloggers, with less then 200 followers.. Pretty cool i think. 
Your to sweet Jennie..
I heart you.!


So, how it works:
 1- Each person must post 11 things about themselves.
 2- Answer the questions that the tagger set for you, AND create 11 questions for the blogs you have tagged.
 3- Choose up to 11 bloggers and link them to the post. 
4- Let them know! 
5- No tag backs.

 

1- If you won a shopping spree, to a store of your choice, what would you pick?
I think it would have to be H&M. This has been my new favorite store. But if i had a place of my own i would go get stuff for my house to make it all cute and what not.. :)

2- What is a quote or motto, you/your family, live by?
Live life to the fullest.
And i love you to the moon and back ,always have, always will.

 3- Who is your favorite actor and actress?
Call me crazy and whatever but i love Jim Carry!!
Every movie i watch of his i laugh my ass off. haha

 4- Name one thing on your bucket list? 
Sky Dive.:)

5- What is a movie you could quote start to finish?
I cant quote any movie from start to finish, but the one i know kinda a lot is
Step brothers.

 6- What is your most recent favorite "addiction'? 
Instagram babbby.

7- What did/do you want to be when you grow up?
Ive always wanted to work with babies. I was and still am set on being a Nurse. One day soon..

 8- Is your life what you thought it would be when you were younger?
No i didn't think this is how my life would be. But i wouldn't change it for the world. Things happens for a reason and i know this reason is a great one!!!

 9- If you could live in someone else's shoes for one day, who would it be? 
Kim Kardashian.. Come on i would love the money, clothes, BUTT. :)

10- What is your favorite treat? 
Strawberry shortcake.

11- What do you do to relax and unwind?
Take a bath, or cuddle with my boys.




Now who i will tag!!!

Jaquie over at Simple.Little.Joys.
Aubrey Over at jayandaubrey
Kasara Over at kmreader
Taylor Over at You and I

Everyone else i wanna tag have already done this.... So if you haven't
TAGGGGGG YOUR IT.....


1- What is your favorite animal, and why
2- If there was anything in this world you could do, No cost at all. What would it be..
3- Where do you see yourself in 15 years.
4- When you were younger how many kids did you want. And has that changed after you had kids.
5- What is your dream date
6- Who was the person you looked up to when you were little.
7-What is something you like doing when you have "ME" time
8-Whats your drink of choice
9- Favorite song
10- If you could be a actor for a day who would you be
11- Whats your biggest pet peeve


So there you have it!!!
So now its your time to DO IT..




Wednesday, July 11, 2012

AvaLyn Michelle

I would like in welcome to this world..

MY BEAUTIFUL NIECE

AvaLyn Michelle Castro...

Born July 10, 2012 at 12:13am

Weighing in at 7 pounds and 20 inches.



There will be an over load on pictures..
I'm one proud Auntie..

So you all know that i came to California to be here for the birth of this little girl. We thought that she would be born the first week i was here. At a few moments we didn't think i would make it for the birth. But after a week of me being here. The doctor thought it would be best to induce my sister. Reason why...... Torie heart rate was VERY high, also little Ava had a issues with her heart as well. So Ava didn't want to come out so inducing was the next best thing.

So Monday Torie got home from the doctor appointment about 1 and needed to be back to the hospital at 2-2:30. So I got everything pack and ready to go. Mike got home and Torie and him headed out. I got the two kids ready and left for Tonya house. She is a friend that was going to watch the kids for the night while we were there. So i was about an hour behind them. When we got to the hospital we had to wait a little bit before we got a room.

About 4 is when we finally got the room and got everything ready for this baby to be born.
I cant believe how big Torie got. Isn't she just so cute Pregnant. :)

About 5:30-6 is when they finally started the pitocin.
Still at 8 she was only to a two and 60%
They thought it was time to break Torie water. And after that the constriction started coming.
She was doing so amazing. She really made it look so easy. No joke.
She was breathing just right and would get thought them really great.
They were getting stronger and closer together. By this time it was about 10. Torie wanted to Try and hold out before she got anything to help with the pain. That night the whole hospital was busy. I swear it was like there was a full moon cause every pregnant girl was in there giving birth. At least 20 cause all the rooms were full. And right when Torie wanted the Epidural there was 5 people that needed to go for a c-section. So that means she wasn't able to get the epidural till the anesthesiologist was back from the 5 c-sections. So that means about 2 hours. Torie was not wanting to go natural.

I had a feeling that she was going to have to go natural cause the wait was so long and she was getting them a lot sooner and harder.

About 10:30 the nurse came in and told her that she was next in line to get the epidural. GREAT. She was ready and wanted to bad. The doctors came in and checked her about 11:45ish and she was at a 6 100% and station at a 0. By this time she still hadn't got the epidural. Right after the doctor left the pains was getting so bad she wasn't able to breath through them. She was screaming, grabbing our hands and just in so much pain. I remember one time she was grabbing my hand so tight it left a ring mark on my finger for about 2 hours after.

12:00 Midnight she got a really big one and said Chelby i need to push... I NEED TO PUSH..
Michael ran out to get the nurse and when he was gone she was pushing. She told me that she knew that baby was coming and didn't think the doctor were going to make it... The nurse came in and said OH boy that baby is right there. DO NOT push. Torie said i need to, i just need to. The doctors came in and was all ready to get this baby here. The next contraction came and Torie pushed a tiny push and baby AVA was here....



12:13am my BEAUTIFUL baby niece was born. That was the most amazing thing to see. Watching a new life be born was just wonderful. I was crying but yet no tears would come out cause i was so happy. To watch my sister give birth was the best thing. I could tn believe in just a matter of 20 minutes my sister went from a 6 to a 10 and the head was there. It happened all so fast it was unreal...

My sister did an amazing job.
And i couldn't THANK You and Michael enough for letting be apart of little Ava birth. It was the most amazing thing in the world. I will never forget that..

Little miss AvaLyn Michelle was born





Little Missy was as healthy as could be. Her heart was just as perfect.
Just to be there for my sister was the most amazing thing in the world.
Torie was there for Connor birth and now i was there for Ava birth. Something we will always hold in our hearts. I love my sister more then anything in this world and I'm so thankful i was able to be here..

Ava is the most beautiful thing ever and i cant get enough of here. 5 days just isn't long enough for me.. But those 5 days i will spend every second holding this adorable little girl!!
I just cant get enough of her.
Yes i am one proud auntie!!
I mean who couldn't be happy to be holding her......


AvaLyn, you will never understand the love i have for you. I love you more then words can express and i cant wait to see what life holds for you. Just always know that your Aunt Chelby will always be here for you day in and day out. You are an amazing baby girl and i cant wait to watch you grow.. I love you to the moon and back always have and always will..
Love always you Auntie Chelby.





ALWAYS..... ♥

Sunday, July 8, 2012

My Superman.


Lets go back a little bit..

My dad was having really bad stomach pains for a few months. Well when he went to his doctor they said that it looked like he had an Ulcer. This was the week before Thanksgiving that he found this out. So he made a CT Scan for December 2.

November 26- December 2
On the 26th Logan and my Dad went outside and started hanging up Christmas lights.

November 27. My dad started saying that he wasn't feeling good. A cold was coming along.

November 29. My dad felt so bad and his boss at work told my dad that he needed to get home and rest. More or less told my dad that he looked like shit and needed to stop working. So my dad come home about 1 and slept the rest of the day. We just though it was a cold or maybe the flu.

November 30. My dad slept ALLL day. No joke the only time he would get up was to go to the bathroom or get something to eat. But really he didn't eat at all. I would go in there and check on him and take him temp and just make sure he was sitting up every now and then. I would tell him that he had to sit up every hour or so. I didn't want it to settle in his chest and get Pneumonia

December 1. We thought he was getting better. He was out of the bedroom, he was eating, laughing, and getting back to normal.. That night i went and stayed down at Logan's. My dad had a doctor appointment the next day and told him if he needed a ride that he needs to call me. Well i never got a call. So i slept in.

December 2. My dad drove himself to the doctor appointment. He told the doctor that he wasn't feeling good and had a feeling that he was getting or had Pneumonia. So Dad went in for a chest x-ray also. The doctor told him that he wouldn't know the results till about noon. So by the time my dad got home from the doctor he wasn't feeling great again. So i came home just to make sure that he was alright. We called the doctor at noon....nothing, called at 3.....nothing, called at 4:30.......NOTHING. By the 3rd time i was getting mad. If it was Pneumonia it could be life or death. It was something i was really scared of. So at 5:30 we called again.......CLOSED. YES they were closed. I was pissed. My mom didn't leave a very nice voice main.. :) When this was all going down. My dad got a fever again and wasn't himself. He went to lay down about 5:30. My mom came home from work and asked me if i could go to Wal-mart and get my dad some soup. So Breanna and I headed to the store. I called my sister just to let them know what was going on. When i was on the phone with my sister, my brother called and said what the hell is going on... I told him that dad wasn't feeling good and i was here at wal-mart getting soup. I guess Michael was on the phone with my mom when my dad came out not breathing right. My mom said son i HAVE to let you go. I'm taken your dad to the hospital. I still didn't know what was going on. So i was at wal-mart freaking out. I called my mom and she told me to meet them down at the hospital..

That night it was snowing BAD!!! It was so bad you couldn't see the car infront of you. So i knew that my mom would be a little sit before should would get there. So i took Connor back to Logan parents house and finally go to the hospital. My parents had been there for about 10 minutes before us. When my dad came around the corner. He looked like a different man. My mom was pretty much holding him up. I looked at him and asked. "Dad are you okay", he say in a shaky voice. YEESSSSS.. As he was talking we had to catch him cause he was falling. When we caught him the nurse called him back to the ER. My mom went back with him as me and Breanna sat waiting. It seemed like we waited FOREVER.. My mom finally came out and told us the news. " Your dad isn't doing good, It looks like he had  Dangerously low white blood cell count, and he also had Pneumonia". They are going to keep him over night and just watch him carefully.

Right then and there i knew this wasn't going to be an easy road for us. I called my brother and told him what was going on, and before i could talk, he told me that he was on his way. 3 hours away and snowing like crazy. I told him to let us see what goes on and we will go from there. I didn't want him driving in the snow. I told him he should wait till we find out more.. My brother didn't listen. He was packed and ready to head out the door..

Meanwhile i was scared to go back to see my dad, but my mom told me that he really wanted to see me. So i head back to room 7. The very last room in the ER... I remember walking in to him having a oxygen mask on and just laying there. The first words that came out of him month was "HEY BABY GIRL". Dad are you going to be okay. "Yes ill be fine..

The nurse came in and asked if i could go out and get my mom. At the point i was scared. They told my mom and they needed to life flight him to the University of Utah.. I remember the look on my moms face when she told us. I called my brother and told him, he need to get here ASAP. The sound in my brothers voice was just so scary. I called my sister and told her everything. She was looking for the next flight out. We all knew it was something bad and we all needed to be there for my dad. I remember calling my best friend Jennie. Telling her was like she was there, i just needed my best friend to hug me and tell me everything was going to be alright. I'm shocked that she was able to understand me cause i was crying to hard. I called Logan and told him i needed him. He got up to the hospital as fast as he would. I made sure that he borough the blazer cause of the snow and we needed to drive to the University.

I was scared but i had to just go see my dad once more before the took him. While i was back there the nurse let me know that life flight wasn't able to make it. The snow was so bad they couldn't fly. So the said the ground team was on its way and it would take about 2 hours before they got here.. I remember just holding my dads hand and him telling me that he was going to be alright and that i needed to stay strong from HIM and my family. I promised him that i would be by his side the whole time. The doctor came in and let us that they they were going to put the breathing tub down him to make sure he was going to be okay. They told me to go get my mom. I looked at my dad and could see the scare in his eyes. I went and gave my dad a kiss and told him that i loved him and what he said back to me was the last words i heard from him for two weeks.. (When my dad gives us kisses its always two kisses on the cheeks) " Two kisses, and i love you so much MY baby girl"

Before i knew it the ground team was here and ready to take my dad off. They asked my mom if she wanted to ride with my dad. So Logan, Breanna and myself follow behind and headed out into the snow. By this time Torie was able to get a flight but wouldn't be here till tomorrow morning about 9, my brother was about 45 minutes away. That car ride to the hospital was the worst drive i ever had to do. Watch there every move in the two back windows. Each time they would move i thought something was going on bad. I remember telling Logan i wouldn't watch anymore, but i couldn't keep my eyes off. It was like bring your newborn baby home for the first time. I had to watch each move they made. It was about at 5600 west that my mom called. My heart dropped." she said once we get into town you cant follow us anymore. we are going to turn the lights on and drive fast. Make sure you get your brother and ill see you guys in a few.. You dad is doing okay. We just need to get there as soon as we can. We will be on the 4th floor in the CCU (Critical Care Unit) Room 4017. Call me when you are here. We love you very much babe."

We met up with Michael and headed to the hospital. We got to the 4th floor and met up with my mom. I remember asking how dad was. He was stable. (Who knew that word would be used so many time in the 3 months we were there) She told us that only 2 could go back and that we need to know that daddy, didn't look like daddy. He was sick and had a lot of things hooked up to him. She told us that it would be very hard to see him like this. So Michael and I headed back. Hand in Hand and scared. His room was clear in the back corner. Room 4017. The room was dark and the doors were wide open. I took a big deep breath and we walked in. My heart sank and i felt like i lost the most important thing to me. My dad was sick. VERY sick. He had so many tub and wire and needles all hooked up to him. He was green and cold. He had things around his arms to hold them down so he couldn't move, or take the breathing tub out. I walked in there and just ran over to give him a kiss. I grabbed his hand and he grabbed back. I knew that my dad was going to be able to fight this. I just cried and cried into my brothers arms.

They Told us that the  Pneumonia had gotten so bad, and he had pretty much 0 white blood cell count. The pneumonia was in his right lung and he was getting sicker by the second. By the time we all got to see him and get things wrapped around our head. It was about 3 in the morning. We headed down stairs in the lobby to try to get some sleep. Logan was able to sleep cause he need to drive to pick Torie up from the air port. I remember those chairs looks so good to sleep in but they weren't. So this is how we slept. IN the hall way of where my dad was, just so we were close to him. We didn't want to leave him. So one at a time we would go in and just be with him. Taken turns. My dad wasn't there, but each time i would walk in, he would open his eyes and i would see those Bright blue eyes and just know he was going to be okay.. I prayed and prayed that he would be okay. I couldn't lose my dad...... I JUST COULDN'T.




DECEMBER 3..
Coming up next....

All Over

I'm reading back on all the post i wrote about my dad, and all i have to say is..


SORRY.

I cant believe how bad i had wrote on here. I don't even understand myself.
I had 150 people view that first blog i posted about my dad, and it just amazes me. It really touches my heart that there was that many people out there caring about my dad and my family. So THANK you all so much..

My dad got sick over 7 months ago and has been home 4 months. BUT i still remember those day like it was yesterday. I close my eye and just picture my dad at the worst. It truly give me nightmares. I know that's bad, but its was something i will never forget..
I'm just so thankful to have this wonderful man still here with me...

But what i was wanting to do. Is re-write it all over again. I will keep all the old ones but i think i need to understand my self. Now that i have more time i will be able to go more in demp with what went on. This Blog is for me and i need to remember those things. The good, The Bad, and The Ugly.

So i just wanted to warn you before i post that i will be pretty much saying the same thing you have already heard. I'm sorry.
But thank you all that do read my blog. I know I'm a  little lazy and lame but still thanks so much..

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Ready

I'm sure the reason why I'm writing this is cause my sister is pregnant..


But I'm totally baby hungry.

Not even kidding i know so many people who are pregnant or just had their little ones.

I just feel READY, I'm ready to take the next step in life with Logan. I want to move out, get married and get pregnant.

IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR...

I know, I know, if it was really that easy. That would be the life
.
Logan and I still have alot to work on with our relationship, we need to get out on our own and yes i would like to be married.

I just think back to when i was pregnant with Connor and think about my labor and what not. I wasn't able to share that with my MAN. I was 16 and didn't tell anyone for a very long time. For the reason i wasn't able to enjoy it as much as i would liked of. I was ALONE. I didn't know how to deal with it and i was scared.

Then when i was in labor, i didn't get that daddy watching his baby come out, i didn't get the daddy crying, or the helping of my man. YES i did have my AMAZING MOMMY and my WONDERFUL SISTER helping me each second. But its not the same with the person who helped you. I know that the person i was with, would never be the person i want there. For so many reason, and it was the best choice i made. But its still the thought.

I would never take back the feeling i had when my baby boy was placed on my chest. I will never forget how amazing his little face was and how much love i could hold. I will never forget how grateful i am to have this little man in my life. Without him i don't know where i would be. Definitely not where i am right now!

BUT When i DO get pregnant, It will be TOTALLY be different. I will have pictures of my belly, updates, i will have Logan go to ever appointment with me, i will have him be there for the labor and the birth, everyone will know the second i find out I'm pregnant, and it will just be the greatest thing.. I cant wait. Its excites me that i will be able to have that amazing thing between Logan and I. I cant wait to feel the baby move inside of me, and just be a momma again.

I'm just READY!!!!



When did my baby grow up..

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Lazy Post

Lazy day post. I want to try and blog more. SO this is what you guys get. The ABC post.




A. Age: 20, will be 21 in 14 days!!! Who is excited......I AM :)

B. Bed size: King

C. Chore you dislike: I DISLIKE them all. But if i had to pick one or maybe two... It would have to be folding and bathrooms.. But truly i wish i had a maid of some sort, or even better Logan to just do it all. :)

D. Dogs: Yes, two. Mya and Diesel.. A shih Tzu and a Boxer.

E. Essential start to your day: Makeup.

F. Favorite colors: pink, turquoise, yellow, purple

G. Gold or silver: Silver. Hands down.

H. Height: 5'5"

I. Instruments you play(ed): My voice? Ha. Nope nothing

J. Job title: Office Assistant

K. Kids: 1. Connor Michael Higgins. 4 years old.

L. Live: Utah.

M. Mom’s name: Vicki Lynn

N. Nicknames: Bugs, Chel, Momma, :)

O. Overnight hospital stays: Giving birth to Connor.

P. Pet peeves: People who slide their fork on their teeth.. The sounded of it bugs the hell out of me.

Q. Quote from a movie: Paging Dr.Faggot, Dr, Faggot. I should go.... yeah you should go Dr. Faggot.. haha LOVE The Hangover..

R. Righty or lefty: Right.

S. Siblings: A brother 32, Sister, 29, Sister 16

T. Time you wake up: 8-9.

U. Underwear: What's that? Kidding. GP all the way ;).

V. Vegetables you don’t like: Cauliflower and broccoli.

W. What makes you run late: Time..

X. X-rays you’ve had: Arm, Hip, Foot.

Y. Yummy food you make: I make the best Taco Soup, Potatoes, Pasta salad, chicken..

Z. Zoo animal you like:  Panda bears, Giraffes and Elephants.

The sweetest Proposal

So i saw this on a blog i follow and i just had to share..

I got goose bumps, i smiled from ear to ear and i cried!!!

I swear this is the sweetest thing in the world....

ENJOY like i did. :)









Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Missing my boys

So I'm here in California with my wonderful sister.

I'm really having a hard time being away from Connor on the 4th. Today just wont be the same. Normally we are up in Park City and having the time of our life. Well Logan and Connor are up there, and here i am upset that I'm not there. Don't get me wrong i love that I'm here with my sister. But its nothing like being with my little family on the 4th. Its a every year thing that we do. I miss it, i miss staying on the top floor bedroom, and swimming and going to the Alpine slide, and just walking around with my amazing boys. I know my boys are having such a good time. Its a boys vacation!!




So this 4th will be totally different. I'm doing nothing but writing on my blog. We are just waiting for this little girl to be born. Nothing yet. We have tired walking, spicy food, pineapple, curb walking, just all the crazy things to start this baby to come. And nothing.... She is just wanting to stay in there..
I'm ready to hold that little girl. I cant wait..

 

Ive been really having a hard time. I'm pretty hurt about these comment Ive been getting from someone.

They have been talking about how Ive lost weight, but then they make these little comments about how i was fat and not able to do anything. Yes i have lost weight, but i was always able to do everything. I'm sorry but i never thought i was way big. I guess i was in other peoples eyes.
I have always budding heads with this person and we have never gotten along. NEVER.
Then he says a comment how i raise Connor. HOW DARE you bring up how i raise my son. Yes we are a little strict with how we are with him. I don't let him get away with things that he shouldn't be doing. I tell him no when he is doing something bad, i put him in the corner when he did do something bad. We have him go to bed by 9:30 no later. HE cant be mean to other kids, He has to say please and thank you. Normal stuff. Well that's what i thought.
When I'm with his kids. They are hitting, biting, punching, slapping, kicking, yelling, just everything. They don't have a bedtime, and when they do something wrong they blame it on Connor. Okay yea I'm doing the same thing he is doing to me. And i know everyone raises their kids different. But NEVER tell me how to raise my son, NEVER tell me that I'm raising him the wrong way, just NEVER bring shit up like that. Its only been three days and I'm so ready to just be away from him. We have never gotten along and we will NEVER get along. I truly dislike him so much.




I MISS MY  BOYS SO BAD!!!!!