Dreams

For the past week, i have been having this same dream. Its like a continuous dream.

I have this dream that Logan and i finally moved into our own place and made it a home. He had this amazing job and i got to be a stay at home mommy. I had friends that care about me, and hang out with all the time. I have the perfect little life..

Then the dream is where i am at the hospital. I just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. This little girl looks just like her daddy. Dark hair, dark eyes, dark skin, and just the sweetest little face. I life her up to burp her and she spits all down my shirt. Logan looks at her and says.. "Thats my girl". We finally got to come home, and to see Connor with his little sister is just the best thing in the world. He loves her. He was  mommies big helper. I just cant believe how well i could see this little babies face, i knew just what she looked like, where each line was, what each thing looked like. It was so unreal, but felt like it was living this amazing dream.

In this dream everything was great, i finally felt like where i need to be in life. I had no worries, no drama, nothing.

I know that i cant have the perfect life, but im sure going to try to have the perfect life.
Cause right now might not be so great but i will get there, It will take time but this dream that i keep having will come true. Maybe not tomorrow, or next week, or even next year. BUT it will come true. My life will be perfect in my eyes.

And i cant wait!!

I cant wait to finally have a little girl in my arms. I want to have a baby so bad that it is killing me. But i know right now we arent ready, the time will come that i will hold Mine and Logans baby in my arm. I want my little girl...