He is back!

There has been so much that is going on with my dad! ALL GOOD NEW. That is just what we want to hear. Im lucky to be able to be up at the hospital every day. It the best thing to be able to have that one and on time with him and get to hear all the good news that has been going on!

So after his 4th surgery it took him about 5 days to get better and be able to not have so many medication. He was on so many. One was every 15 min, next was 30 min, next was every hour and the last was every 4 hours, and then there was one that was he would get ever 6 hours. So all he was doing for 5 days was sleeping. But when that was all over and pain was under control, things started looking up again! The mass was NOT cancer, his belly was closing up just right and he was becoming more himself!

When his belly was all swelled up they had to but a NG tube down his nose to get all the fluids out. He has that in him for about 11 days. It was so uncomfortable for him and just a pain in the ass. It was huge!

Friday January 20th he finally got the NG tube out! I thought the tube would become smaller when he was down there, but nope it was that big the whole way down to his belly! I couldn't believe it. I felt so bad seeing it come out, my dad was gagging the whole time. But it was so nice to see it finally out! He was super happy and was able to breath again. Doesn't he look so handsome.

That same Friday we had another big thing happen! For the first time my dad was able to get up into a normal wheel chair and stay in that for a hour or so. It was amazing to see these huge things happen all in one day. I just cant believe how wonderful my dad really is. A Guy from Hangers came to talk to my dad able his legs and arm. We were talking about all the different types of legs he could get and that he would be as tall as he wanted to be. It was amazing to see what you could do with your legs and hands. They told us that it would be about 2-3 weeks and he should be up and WALKING.. yes you read right WALKING. :) 

Things just kept getting better and better!

Saturday January 21st My brother and his family came down and was able to get my dad a hair cut. He has been wanting to get done for so many weeks now. He was happy and said he felt like a new man, and was ready to take on the world. :) His left hand is coming back more now then it was before, it seems like each day he can move it just a little more. They did so more test on it and all they can see is that he has tennis elbow, and some nerve damage. It will come back and will have full movement. Its just going to take sometime.  

Monday the 23th was a good day for us also. Over the weekend my dad got out all his stitches in his legs, arm and fingers. He got different socks on to form his legs a little more. He got these braces that helped him with eating, writing and everyday things. Him and Connor were able to play break the Ice and was also able to eat ice cream together.Connor was Papa nurse for that dad. He would fluff his pillow, move him up and down, push him in the wheel chair, and feed him. Anything papa needed Connor was right there helping him. It was the sweetest thing in the world to see. Connor now wants to be a nurse when he grows up. He told me when the people push the nurse button he will go to their room and give them medication and give them a drink and just help it! My sweet baby!

Now Yesterday was yet another great day! My best friend Amanda came from Idaho to come see my dad! We just got to hang out and talk about everything with my dad. Zoe my dad wonderful nurse called my mom and told her to bring up a BEER for my dad. Yup a beer. The doctor told us that he could eat anything ans drink everything so why not bring up a beer for him. :) So we shut the door and gave my dad a cold Bud Light, and lets just say is was an amazing taste from what he said. Who would of known that beer would make you feel better and know that your dad is BACK. 

 Today my dad was up in the wheel chair for 5 hours. The longest he has ever been up in it! They let him play around with an ipad and set up this drinking hose. It there so he can get himself a drink on his own and don't have to keep asking us. They told us the best news of anything. REHAB Monday!!! He isn't getting anymore IV he is able to take pills by mouth now, and he is only on the feeding tube during the night. They are saying that the feeding tube could be coming out next week if things stay on track. And one more thing tomorrow he will be getting into a power wheel chair!! YAY. He will even be able to use his left hand.

Tomorrow he will be going into surgery once more! Nothing to big he just has his huge scab on his right arm that is so deep that they has to take it off and stitch it together. It will be a in and out surgery. So nothing to worry about! Things are looking up and we cant wait till next week to see him in rehab!!

We see the light at the end of the tunnel!!!

 I know this was a sucky up date but I'm up here with my dad and he keeps telling me to get off the damn computer!!! haha. 

HE IS BACK!!!!! :)

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TOMORROW I PROMISE TO UPDATE YOU ON MY DAD!!!
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TAG

Jennie over @ Our Family of Four tagged me to do this cute survey!

The Rules

1- You must post the rules, and link up who tagged you.

2- Post 11 fun facts about yourself in the blog post.

3- Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and then create 11 new questions to ask the people you have tagged.

4- Tag however many people you want!

5- Let them know you have tagged them!

Facts:

1- I really have blonde hair, I just hate the way i look when I'm blonde.

2- I have to have the TV on all night or i cant fall asleep and stay asleep.

3-I truly suck at blogging.. I look back at my post and nothing make sense!

4- I want my dad home more then anything in this world!!

5- I'm really want to be married and on my own. But with no money that's not coming anytime in the future.

6- I want to start learning how to cook better. I want to learn to cook the health meals but still enjoy it like the bad meals. :) I would love to go to some cook classes just to learn more about being a good cook.

7- I cant get enough of Logan and Connor.

8-I wish i had closer friends. Like i want to have girl time and go out and be crazy ever now and then! I need that sometimes.

9- Sweats are my favorite things to wear! If i could wear them 24/7 i totally would.

10- Music is the best thing in the world! I could listen to it all day everyday! It put words into something i could never explain. Love it

11- With my dad being in the hospital i have became stronger, but yet so weak. It hard to explain but its a good feeling.

Questions:

1- If you could do absolutely anything in the world, knowing you wouldn't feel fear, what would you do?

Trust people again.

2- If you could have any animal as a pet, what would you pick?

Monkey! I love them, just not the smell.

3- Best day of your life so far?

December 17,2007. When Connor was born and December 10, 2011, When my dad woke up and got the breathing tub out. :)

4- What is your biggest fear?

Losing the ones i love.

5- Where do you see yourself 20 years from now?

I would love to see myself in my own house, have two more kids, have a wonderful job that provides for my family! And to be HAPPY.

6- What is your favorite TV show right now?

2 Broke girls! Such a funny show!

7- What movie could you watch over and over and never get tired of?

For sure Bridesmaids

8- What is your favorite quote and why?

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game! Reason is cause you should never give up on something you want. Never let the fear take control of you!

9- If you had an all expenses paid vacation to anywhere in the world for one week, where would you go and who would go with you?

Australia, its a beautiful place and would take my Dad! Reason why is because he has been through so much.

10- Favorite childhood memory?

Hanging out with my cousin at my grandparents! We used to play GRAY WOLF. it was a fun fun game and we would play down at the chickens! Oh good times.

11- Who is/was your hero while growing up and why?

My dad! I looked up to him for so many things! He taught me so many thing that i would of never got. He has been there for me when i needed him the most! He is and always will be my HERO

Your Turn!

Taylor @ You and I

Kasara @ kmreader

Ashlee @ Our little Fam

Lori @ Lawrence Sandwich

Melissa @ MelandJason

And all of you!! :)

Your Questions:

1- Whats you favorite time of the year, and why?

2-Who is the person you look up to the most in life, and why?

3-Whats the best vacation you have ever taken?

4- If there was a fire in the house what the first thing you would get. Other then your kids?

5-What is your favorite type of food?

6- When i say High school whats the first thing that comes to mind?

7- What is your guilty pleasure?

8- As a child what was your favorite toy/or thing to do?

9- Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

10- If you could be anyone/anything in the world what would you be and why?

11- What made you fall in love with the number 1 person in your life?

I'm Gonna Love You Through It

This song Im going to love you through it! Is just how we feel for my dad! Its an amazing song! You really dont know how much you are loved till someone gets sick!

Im going to love you through it

Martina McBride

She dropped the phone and burst into tears

The doctor just confirmed her fears

Her husband held it in and held her tight

Cancer don’t discriminate or care if you’re just 38

With three kids who need you in their lives

He said, "I know that you’re afraid and I am, too

But you’ll never be alone, I promise you"

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong

When you let go, I’ll hold on

When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes

When you feel lost and scared to death,

Like you can’t take one more step

Just take my hand, together we can do it

I’m gonna love you through it.

She made it through the surgery fine

They said they caught it just in time

But they had to take more than they planned

Now it's forced smiles and baggy shirts

To hide what the cancer took from her

But she just wants to feel like a woman again

She said, "I don't think I can do this anymore"

He took her in his arms and said "That's what my love is for"

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong

When you let go, I’ll hold on

When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes

When you feel lost and scared to death,

Like you can’t take one more step

Just take my hand, together we can do it

I’m gonna love you through it.

And when this road gets too long

I'll be the rock you lean on

Just take my hand, together we can do it

I’m gonna love you through it.

I’m gonna love you through it.

♥



Surgery #4

Can we please be done with going under anesthesia, and done with the breath tub down his mouth?

 Can we be done taken steps back and done with the stitches?

Can we be done with being sore, and done hurting?

CAN WE JUST BE DONE?!?!

I know we are already for this to be over with. Ready for him to come home, and ready to go back to our normal.

Yesterday my dad went in for his 4th surgery?

WHY???

Well when the doctor were checking his staples in his belly, they started taken them out and when they started doing that, he belly opened. It wasn't closing right and on top of it when he belly swelled up, it was putting pressure on the staples. The doctor wanted to go in and see for sure why there was a leak? So once again my dad had to have the tub down and under anesthesia. When they opened him up they found a pin hole in his intestine and that's what was causing the leaking. Well they had to take two more inches from his intestine and said this should heal up the right way. Fingers cross.

They closed up him on the inside but they left the top open. Reason why is just in case anything else happen, they didn't want to keep opening him and hurting the good tissues. It will close on its own in about a month.

My dad is doing good. He is in a lot of pain but was still able to watch all the football games last night. He would yell at the game and then go ouch ouch ouch, cause he was screaming so bad it was hurting his belly. But hey at least he was in a good mood.

I just hate these back steps, but my dad is still shooting for rehab in 5-7 days. His words. so lets keep believing that we will be there in a week.

I'm sorry that every post i write is me sad, or stressed, but i just want this to be over.

Thank you for all the wonderful prays!

I love you Daddy

My 2012 goals

I know I'm Pretty behind on this one but i don't care. ;-)

So my 2012 Goals.

Be the best mom i could be! Give him everything he needs, and watch him grow! He is my world and i don't want to miss a moment with him!

Be a aunt to these guys, who they can look up to!

To be a better girlfriend.

Remind these guys they are my back bone!

Not let this number get the best of me! Working harder on it!

 Act like tomorrow is my last day!

To get my dad home, and to always be there for these 2 amazing people in my life!


This year i want to make a change. I don't want to take things for granted, i don't want the little things to get to me. I want to stop stressing and i want to be more happy!
In the last few months i have came to a point in my life where i need to change, i need to start acting like an adult, and stop playing these games. Life has slapped me in the face a few time and not tell now i have really understood why! I'm ready got 2012 and im ready to see what it holds for me!

Amazing day

So today has been a really good day for us!!

Dad was in wound care and they took out every other stitches, and they finally got the socks on his legs and arms to form them the right way. When they were forming normally they looked like a hourglass, so this will just help to form them the right way!. They look really good!

Then we went to therapy, this is where is became amazing! They fitted my Dad with a brace on his right arm. Guess what that means? He will be able to feed himself, change the channel, call the nurse, use an ipad, and Write.

And today he WROTE him Name!

 AMAZING!!

Yea today has been a really good day!

And we are talking about rehab this coming week!

and tub is coming out tomorrow!

My dad is my HERO!



Circles

So Wednesday night my dad woke up about 5 in the morning and he belly was the size of 4 bowling balls. He belly was so swelled that they had to do a few test to see why it was doing that. They said anytime they works with the bowel its never uncommon for something like this to happen. Bowel really don't like to be messed around with. His hear rate was really high and his blood pressure was stable. He was having a hard time breathing and was just really tired. When the x-ray come back it looked like he was having an other obstruction of the bowel. The only reason why they didn't think it was that was cause he was still passing gas and was able to have bowel movements. So what they did was put a tub down his nose to get ride of all the fluids from his tummy as well as the air. They are really hoping that he will start burping and farting a lot more, cause the tub can only take out so much before there is nothing left. So passing gas is the best way to get all the air out. Who would know we would be excited about my dad passing gas.. :)

So after the tub went in, right away there was 2 liters that came out., and by the end of the night there was 4 liters. Crazy huh. I cant believe how much your body can hold. Once they got that in his heart rate started going down and it seems like he wasn't in as much pain anymore. But then all day yesterday he was just super tired and not really doing anything. Kinda felt like we did a big circle.

As of today they still have the tub down him, but what he said they are going to take it out tomorrow! Lets hope. He heart rate is normal and he seems to be doing a lot better today! i know that we will have bumps in the road but haven't we already had so many. I thought we would be out of the woods and be thinking about going home sooner! I know that time will come, but we are already to have him home now!

My dad legs, hands and fingers look wonderful, we should be getting stitches out here in the next week. Still hard to not see them there, but I'm getting used to it! Each day he is having to get medication to get ride of the feeling that he still has feet and hand. That's hard to see him think he still has them but the doctor says that should only last a few months. My dad says his fingers on his right (remember that's the one that had to go to his elbow) feel like they are 2 feet long and that someone is holding his hand. He thinks that he feet are ice cold and that he is wearing shoes! So that is hard to have to remind him that there aren't there.
Last night was a really hard time for my dad and i! He was looking sad and i ask him what wrong and he told me "I just don't understand why it has to be me, Why do i always have to get sick, and get out through this"BROKE MY HEART! I had no clue what to say to him! I just told him that he is so strong and to never give up! He promised me that he would Never stop fight and together we will get through this!! Made me feel a little better.
My dad is STRONG

Here is a picture of my sweet dad sleeping. :)

Okay so on to the good news!

My dad's working is AMAZZZING!

So when my dad got sick they got together and saved up money to pay the house payment, they also gave us money just for the hell of it, they are dealing with dad retirement for us, they have gotten a raffle together to raise money for my dad wheel chair and whatever else we need, and i can keep going on and on, so pretty much they are the bomb.com. Am i right..

Well about a few weeks ago we got a call from my dad's work buddy and he told us that working is going to build a ramp for my dad.

I was like

Yes that is how i looked for a good couple hours. I was just so happy. They told us, all we need to worry about is getting my dad better and get him home. With them helping us and them dealing with everything we really don't have to worry about anything other then getting my dad better! It just amaze me what they are doing! I knew my dad was liked and loves, but you never really know till you get sick! He is so loved and so amazing to everyone! I don't think we can say thank you enough to them for everything that have done for us and for my dad!

So a week or so before my dad gets home our house will be a construction zone. The whole house, we will get new door, new tub chair, toilet chair and a wonderful ramp. Its just amazing how much people come together in times like these. We are SOOO thankful for everyone that has helped us.

The Railroad

The Transcript

Both our families

My Friends

The hospital

There are so many names i could name but that will be an other post!

SO THANK YOU ALLLLL for everything you do for us, even if it is just a pray. Those mean the most! :)

One step at a time

So i know that its been a really long time that i have updated, but all i do is go to the hospital and hangout with my dad. I feel bad that i haven't updated you guys for a really long time, but i promise i will do better! Computer is going to go up the the hospital with me everyday so i can update while he is sleeping!

Okay so last time i wrote anything we had just done the second surgery and the bad days with his kidneys.. Well since then things have been a little better.. Let me start when his bad week. the December 25-29. These were the days where my dad really didn't know who he was or anything. He would talk to us and tells us he loved us but its was just really hard to know that he was having a hard time. On the 29th my Dad sister and brother came down from Idaho, it was like he knew that he needed to get better cause that day was a change. He was back to who he was, he was joking, getting after us, and was just back to my DAD. I was so happy to see him start he be like himself again. We were able to take him out side for the first time. I knew he loved doing that. Able to breath in the air, and the cold. He was in heaven, and so were we.

 The week of 29th- the 6th, was such a great week. I was the one who was at the hospital with him all the time. Torie and Michael had to go back to California and my Brother also had to go back to Idaho. So it was just going to be.  I was looking forward to this.! I was reallying needed this time with him and I. I was under stress and i knew just hanging out with him would make everything better! It really helped. My dad was back to what he was before he got sick, he was bossing me around, we were joking and just being like our self again! I loved it.! Things couldn't be better. He was going all the therapy that was out there and was doing them so great! He was able to start eating real food again, and he was able to start drinking water, soda, and his coffee. He was really excited about that!

The doctor came in and was talking to us about stopping Dialysis for a couple days and see how he would do on his own again. UGH we didn't want this at all. We didnt want that to happen again and start from square one again! But the doctor said that he was peeing a lot and things were looking really good. Okay so last Wednesday was the day we stopped it. They would watch it day by day and just keep a close eye on him to see if anything changed. Day one:good, day two: better, day three: even better, day four: great. Each day it seemed to get better and better! We were excited and just jumping for joy. But not to soon, we were still worried that things might change. We had high hope, and so did the doctor.

January 6th. This weekend we had my aunts, uncles, cousins, and just tons of people there. They hadn't seen my dad in a long time so they wanted to come spend the weekend with us. We were excited to have them see him! When we got to the hospital my dad was having really bad stomach pains. they were like poop pains, he hadn't had a bowl movement for a few days, and they just thought he needed to have a bowl movement. So they did a cat scan to see just what it really was. All day my dad was in so much pain that he couldn't really visit. We really weren't worried cause we knew he needed to poop. TMI. Once the test came back, the doctor said we needed to do an emergency surgery. He had an obstruction of the bowel or inside of his small intestine. They knew that he has some kind of mass,  but just wasnt sure, they told us if they didnt get it out or check on it, it could be something deadly. So it scared the crap out of us. It felt like we were doing an other step back and it was just really hard to send him off to surgery once again..

They said that surgery would take about an hour and if anything changed they would call us. Well an hour passed, and then two hours rolled around. We were getting a little crazy waiting and waiting. Finally after two hours the doctor came out. He said that there was a mass/tumor in his small intestine. They had to take a few inches from his small intestine and to do Reconstruction on it. They were going to do test on the mass to see what that it was. They were worried that it might be cancer or something but We still haven't got the result from that. They said when he was open, they would of been able to fit a football in his stomach. They opened him from the bottom of his breast bone to the bottom of his belly button. He is doing much better today just in a ton of pain. It hurts for him to do anything. He isn't able to drink or eat, but that will slowly come back. I dont know if i said this in post before but a few weeks before my dad got really sick he was having stomach pain and was going in to get it check to see what it was, they thought it was an ulcer, well that pain was this pain he was feeling and had surgey for. So no matter what he would of had this surgery, but it might of been worst. So this was a good thing that we were here, and able to get it fixed.  

Yesterday we got the best news!!!!!

NO MORE DIALYSIS!

They took it out and its been a week that he last got it! IT was such great news to know we wont have to do that anymore!! Ahh beautiful music to our ears!

Now they are talking about rehab this coming up weekend or by the first of next week!!!!!!!

Yes things are coming and things are looking up! I cant wait for him to go to rehab, the next step after that is HOME! Yes HOME is in our near future! :-)

I know i have been really lame about updating on here, but i have a million and one things to worry about! But i promise to you that i will try my hardest to update at least once a week or twice!

And you will be getting a late update on Connor Birthday and Christmas!

Thanks for the prays and the wonderful thought! It has been a crazy and wild month but my dad is a fighter and a wonderful man!!!

Im lucky to have him!!!!!