I'm the lucky one

It's so true. ME, I, I'm the lucky one.

Connor has been the biggest blessing in my whole life. Yea i was 15 when i got pregnant, i was scared out of my mind when i found out. I just knew i would be a disappointment to my family and they would just hate me for the whole thing. I was wrong, completely wrong. My family opened their arm even more when i was pregnant, not one of them put me down in the dumps over this. I was lucky. I count my blessing everyday for the people who are in my life RIGHT now.

Travis left me when i was 7 months pregnant, he left me when i needed him the most, he left me when my whole family found out, he left me when i was going thought the hardest time of my life. HE LEFT ME. Still to this day I'm not 100% sure why he did. I have lots of different thoughts. Maybe its cause he wasn't ready to be a dad, maybe he really was trying to best to be a better dad, maybe it was cause i didn't tell our family till i was 7 month pregnant, maybe its was cause we were having a boy, tons of thought ran through my mind i was lost and alone. I hated him for just leaving me like that.

How could someone just leave the girl that was holding his child, how could someone. I know I'll never understand why this all happened like it did, I'll never understand why CONNOR and I weren't good enough for him. But you know what I'm so glad it happened like it did, cause i wouldn't be the

person i am today if he didn't leave me. I wouldn't be a strong mom if he was here, i wouldn't be independent, i wouldn't be IN LOVE with my SOUL MATE. Sometime i think to myself, "Thanks you Travis for leaving me, thanks you for showing me that i can be a better person, thank you for showing me that i can find someone who loves me the way i am, thank you for showing me that I'm the best mom Connor could ask for. Thanks you Travis

I never thought 3 years ago that i would find someone that loved me for ME. When Logan came into my life, he knew that it wouldn't just be me, its was going to be Connor and I. Not once did Logan think twice about US. He wanted us, he wanted this life, he wanted to be a father figure to Connor.

Everyday that goes by Logan never fails to tell me how much he loves Connor and I not one day. He hugs me just a little tighter when he leave, kisses me once more just to tell me that I'm the one for him. I fall in love with this man

every time i see him, I never thought that could happen to ME. But it did.

My joy of life, the reason i live every day, my smile, my laugh, my whole universe. Connor is my everything. I don't know how i got so luck to have Connor choose me as his mom. I just know he was my greatest blessing.

After everything i went though he was the healthiest baby out there. Yea motherhood is hard at time but i wouldn't change the late nights, peeing in the car, throwing toys, pushing my buttons, nothing for the wonderful hugs, smile, laughs, kisses. I wouldn't change it for the world. My life at this very moment is the best its been. I love my life!

I'm one lucky Momma

One lucky girlfriend

one lucky girl!

and this is why... :)