~3 month people, 3 months, till i say i do to the love of my life. I cant believe how fast it has creeped up on us. I kept telling myself,"Oh i have time, the wedding isn't till August". Umm Yeah it right around the corner. I'm so excited for this day. I have been waiting all my life, and i cant believe its finally here. I have so much to do but yet not a lot. I'm kinda freaking out about bridesmaids dresses. We cant find any here so we are having to look online. I hate ordering online cause i always need to try on before i buy ANYTHING..
So the dresses better fit. I also cant make up my mind. I keep changing the dresses and then when i think i found them, i start finding things wrong with them. Its so hard trying to get this all done when, 4 of your bridesmaids live out of state, when one is pregnant, and when i cant make up my dang mind.
I know that everything will come together in the end, but getting to the end is the hard part.
~ My sister in law is soooo close to having her baby. 3 weeks, doctor says that she is 2 weeks ahead of time. So he thinks she will be going in sooner. I agree cause last time i saw her, she was HUGE and LOW. Its so cute to see such a big belly on such a little girl. They are still trying to pick out a name, which i cant wait to find out what it is going to be. I have a favorite, so we will see. I cant wait to be an Auntie again.
~ A few weeks ago, we found out that my sister who lives in California is going to be moving to Florida. It has been really hard to make peace with this. I just hate knowing i wont get to see her as much, and that he kids really wont know who we are. YES i know there is facetime and phone calls, but its nothing like being with them. Its sad cause Aidan and Ava right now don't really know who we are. My sister is my best friend, but i feel that our relationship was drifted apart cause of how far she lives, and i only think it might get harder. I'm going to try not to make it as bad as I'm thinking it will be. Its whats best for my sister and her family. And i guess it now gives us a reason to go to Florida..
~Connor is LOVING baseball, and then i say LOVING i mean he is in total love with this sport. He plays twice a week, and gets to play each position. He is always counting down the days and time till he can play baseball again. Its the sweetest thing.
School is coming to an end for Connor, only 3 more weeks. On May 16th they are having a little graduation for the pre-school kids. I know that I'm going to be a big baby when its time to watch him.
They have been practicing for the graduation for a few weeks now, and Connor makes sure we know everything about that. ALL day EVERY day he is singing songs. Take me out to the ball game, Its a small world, Grand old Flag, C is for Cookie and lots more. His favorite song is Take me out to the ball game and Grand old flag.
It makes me so sad to think my little baby is so much of a baby anymore.
He is playing baseball, graduating from pre-school, and having his own say in everything. He is such a blessing!
~Logan finished his first semester of school!! YAY and passed with an A-. Only 15 more semesters to go.
Logan is loving work, I'm so glad he found a job that he loves and knows he can stay at for a long time!
~As for me, things are still hard. My anxiety is getting the best of me. Last time i went to the doctor he changed up my pills. I haven't been on them a month yet, but i haven't been able to see much of a difference. I know it takes time, but I'm just so tired.
It not fair for my family to have to deal with this each day. I come home and I'm never in a good mood, every little thing gets to me. I just don't know how to handle it.
A couple weeks ago we were going yard work outside and the next morning my wrist really hurt. I was just thinking it was from working in the yard. But the pain just got worst. So when i went to the doctor, i had him look at it. Well tendinitis has made its ways in my life. Now i have to wear a brace for 4 weeks and go back to the doctor and see how things are going. Right now it still hurts pretty bad. I cant have my brace off or it just kills, but when the brace is on i can handle..
WORK... Well lets just say i really dislike it right now. I truly believe a lot of my anxiety is coming from my work. There is so much that I'm stressing over, and i don't think the stress with calm down anytime soon. I did apply for a new job.
I GOT It, but its only part time. When i told my boss here at the Chamber he was really upset and wants me to work part time here as well. I told him i would till i saw how things would go with this new job. The more i think about it the more i just want to leave the Chamber and just have the one job. I loved working here but things have gone a little wild, and i dont want to be in the middle of it. Long story..
So we will see how things go before i take any big steps.
