This year has been a hard year for me so far. With my health and emotions. I have been feeling tons of anxiety, depressed and just not feeling myself.
My job has been VERY VERY stressful. I don't know if its really worth being here anymore. Sometime i KNOW life would be so much better if i just up and quite. BUT I'm not that kind of person. I don't want to feel like i don't help with bring home the money and help support our growing family. I'm just so tired and worn out that its taken a HUGE toll on me!
Yes i would love to be a stay at home mom, most days i feel like that's the best thing for me right now. I just really need to sit down and talk about whats going on.
I hate feeling like this and most days it takes everything i have in me to not cry or get upset with Connor or Logan. I shouldn't have to live like that and its not fair for my family to have that feeling of "Is mom/ Chelby going to be okay today". I want to be OKAY everyday and i want Connor growing up knowing that i was the FUN mom and not the sad, upset mom.
I have been on pills for a while now but i don't think they are helping much! I know that it takes awhile to start making you feel like yourself again, but I'm So ready to feel normal!! I want to be able to smile and be happy.
I'm just so tired and worn out!!
Who knows maybe going to see someone is the next best thing for me to do.!
1 comment:
Im sorry bestie. I love you so much! Hang in there. Sit down with Logan and talk things over. Maybe see if you can just go to part time at work, instead of full time? That would take off a lot of stress for you, you'd be able to be with Connor more, but you'd still be helping financially. And don't be too hard on yourself. You have a lot going on lately, and it's okay to feel a little overwhelmed, but do things to help you relax too!
Also, remember (this is the most important thing) that you can text or call me anytime! I love you!
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