Some Days are just HARD.....

Sometimes you just feel like the world is crushing down on you. 

As much as you want to be strong and have a good head on your shoulders it never happens like that.

Going to take a shower just to cry or to scream a little bit is the only way to make you feel a little better. 

Most days i feel like i cant even remember how to smile or even to put a fake smile on my face. I have so many things going on right now in my life i don't know how i make it day to day. I just want to lay in bed and not move.

But then i look at my adorable son Connor and watch my belly move from my unborn son and know that i have to keep pushing for them. I have to try my hardest to make this life worth wild and worth the crazy ride. Cause in the end these two boys need their mommy more then anything. And if i keep dwelling on the little things i will miss the big things in my kids life's. I dont want to miss out on anything. I want to remember each day, like im re-living it over and over again! These boys are the reason i am who i am. 

Im going to be strong for these two and i know no matter what happens in my life i know that i will always have my boys to be my support. I love you boys more then anything in this whole wide world!!!

I know there will always be trials and hills to get over but i didnt think i would have to deal with 99% of them all at once. But i will deal with them one at a time and get through this without any bruises.... well without any cuts. 

Just Cause

Just cause i can post these pictures. 

We were on our way home from Idaho this past weekend and Connor was so tired. Each time i would look back he would be sleeping a little different. I don't know how he sleeps like this but i thought it was adorable! 

I'm so lucky to have such an amazing little son!

32 Long weeks

What's up with Baby this week? 
32 Weeks.

ARE WE DONE YET....

Our little man is weighing in at 3 3/4 pounds
and about 16.7 inches long.
The size of a Large Jicama


In the latest womb reports, your amazing baby has now developed sensitivity to temperature! Which means you’re likely to get a swift kick if you put a hot pad or bag of ice on your ginormous belly. For the Elton John lovers out there - baby’s got blue eyes. Actually, even if you're too young to know who Elton is, all babies have blue eyes at this point. This could easily change after birth (or even between now and labor), but for the time being, blue it is. Thanks to their recently matured lungs and a strengthening immune system, over 90% of babies born in their 32nd week survive! So - go ahead and throw a mini-party right now because it’s pretty much a done deal - you've got a human-bean that's going to make it! That's not to say you actually want your wee womb-squatter to pack their bags and move out now, because they'd still end up in the ICU for a good while, rather than in your arms at home. Babies are best when fully baked!

 By now, your baby weighs 3 3/4 pounds (about the size of a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You're gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, she'll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb. She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth.

Symptoms?  This week has been pretty bad for me! I cry over nothing and my mood changes with each minutes that passes. I feel bad for Logan and Connor. Everything gets to me, like im sure i sound like a bitch 99% of the time.
 My sciatic nerve is going to be the death of me. It hurts to be on the feet for along period, cause my back will start hurting. At night I'm also getting dang restless leg syndrome..

Can the next 8 weeks go fast!!!

Gender? Handsome little boy!

Excited For?

 Baby showers.
Getting Izaac Room all set up! I cant wait to finally see how it will all look in the end!

Maternity Clothes? OH YES. I think i would die without these. They are a women best friend.

Sleep? Well it been getting better now that i have this bad boy! But with my sciatic nerve and restless legs and having to pee 4 times a night, im not getting as much sleep as i would hope.

Movement? LOTS!!!! He is always moving. I think its pretty funny to watch my belly go crazy! 

Belly Button Status? Even with belly. Sometime you can see my belly button through my shirt but not every day! 

Missing Anything?
Laying on my belly.
Legs not hurting 24/7
Not being moody all the time.

Cant believe the difference. 

 
   

Milestones? 

Making it to 32 weeks.
8 Weeks to go. OR LESS.
Down to the single digits in weeks.
Painting Izaac room

Cravings? Nothing really this week. I have noticed that i'm not hungry all the time like i normal am. 

Weight Gain?  25 Pounds.
I hate thinking of how much i have gained. Everyone says it doesn't look like i have other then my belly but i can tell. It makes me sad cause i know its going to be hard to lose again!!!

Here is a little sneak peak of Izaac Room. 

Connor helped me pick out the colors and helped me paint all day. It was so cute to see how excited  Connor was to help with his brothers room. 

I cannot wait to show more!!