Monday, August 8, 2011

8 fears

8 Fears..

The lost of Connor..
Never in my mind will i want to lose him. He is my entire world and so much more. I cant picture my life without him in it. He makes me whole, he makes me smile, brighten up my life he is my everything. I never want to lose that.

Family.
My whole life is base on my wonderful family. I cant ever see my life without them in it.

Rats.
EWWWW enough sad right there.

Being alone.
I never want to be alone in my life. I dont feel right when its just me. Dont get me wrong i like my time and space, but i always have to have someone with me. Im a big baby and need someone. :)

Death.
Im truly scared of dying. I dont want to be in pain.

Clowns.
Again enough said. HATE THEM Cry every time i see them.

Logan.
In Logan family every guy on his dad side has had heart attacks. His dad, grandpa's, and uncles have died from that.. Its scares me. I just dont every want to lose Logan. We are met for each other and i dont want to miss out on a great life with him. :)


P.S
I have a lot of venting to do tomorrow.. Uhhh i just need to let it all out. So sorry for whoever reads this, your going to get a ear full tomorrow.. lol

Monday, August 1, 2011

♥ Family Reunion 2011

So over the weekend i was able to go up to Idaho for our yearly family reunion..
7 years ago was the last time that we had been to a BIG family reunion.. When i say big i mean HUGE family.. Its my mom side of the family and its 2nd, and 3rd, and 4th, and 5th cousins.. Its just lots of people and so much fu
n.. There was a year where we lost about 5 people.. Died all within a few months.. and it seemed like they were the ones that kept US together and kept the reunion going on. After they died its just seemed like the family cut down. So MY family would just make it that all of us would get together and keep it going..

So anyways, after 7 years of not going we thought it would be great to start going.. I wanted to show Logan and Connor my FAVORITE place when i was little. I always looks forward to going and hanging out with all my cousin. I remembered always going swimming, riding our bikes down the big hill, the fish pound, volleyball, karaoke, the hot springs.. I just remember so much and i couldn't wait to show this place off.. It was a place that i grew up at. Tons of my childhood memories where made there.. Ahh i was just so excited for Connor to start making great memories there..

So we left Friday and the whole way up there i was bragging to Logan about everything there and how much fun it was and how excited i was to start our family memories there..
When i got there and ready to set up our tents i looked around and thought it myself.. Man its smaller then i remember.. Haha.
That night we just hung out talking around the camp fire..
Saturday was the day i was looking forward to..
We woke up Saturday morning and i knew this day was going to be a GREAT day. I was right.
First most of the family went golfing, its a golf tournament, i was excited for Logan going so he could get to know my family a little more and just get comfortable with them.. By the time they got back its was close to Noon.. Logan had a BLAST with my family and even won a prize ( Closes to the green).
So everyone got into there swim suites and off the to pool we went.. When we got there everything looks just the same as i remembered it was.. Us cousin went off to the deep in and got on the HUGE tub and fought to get on and stay on, we played chicken fights, dunked each other and just had a great time... It brought back so many good memories

It started to rain so we left swimming... So we went to the camp grounds and got all cleaned up. It was time for the kids games.. and Connor had a blast.. He got all sorts of toys and loved every minute of it..
While the kids were playing there little games we (as in the cousin) started our own little game.... BEER PONG. i guess you would say beer pong was our family game.. :) This is where it got a little crazy......
and this is where ill keep it short and sweet.. :) Lets just say it ended up being the best weekend Ive had in a very long time.. tons of beers, hard drinks, and great laughs why wouldn't it be a great weekend.. :)


Here is Connor riding his bike down the huge hill, like i used to when i was little..
As you can see Connor is only on 3 wheel.. While he was riding one training wheel broke off..
So i guess this gives us a reason to teach him to ride a 2 wheel.. :)
The game that started it off!!! :)
Me and my wonderful family!!

Getting a little bit SIDEWAYS!!

Families are like fudge, Sweet with a few NUTS

Check Spelling

Nine ♥


Okay here we go.. I know its not Monday but hey it works right...
9 Loves..


(NOT in any order..)

1) Connor Michael Higgins..
HE is the one that makes me crazy and whole all at the same time. He keeps me on my feet but still teaches me everyday! I love you Boo Boo..

2) Music
I dont think i could live without some kind of Music, mostly Country. Its always help me get through everything..

3) My car.
Really its my life.. Whenever i need just space, i know i have my car.. lol :P
4) Miss Mya May
This girl is my world! She is my best friend.
5) Blogger
I love blogging even if i dont do it as much as i would like to. It lets me talk about everything and anything.. I can let it all out on here. :) I love looking back at older post and seeing how much things have changed.. Ah i love it.
6) Jake
My cousin is more then that, he is my best friend. I can count on him for anything, and I know no matter where life takes us i know that we will be as close as this.. I love you Jakey poo
7) My family
These are the people who make me... me.. I love them with everything i have.
8) MY tub
This is where i can think and take away all my stress... Girls best friend..
9) The Sun.. I know totally cheesy
But when the sun isnt out and shining i feel so down and depressed.. So the sun help bring up my sprits.. :)