This year

Christmas this year.... IT will be different.

Last Christmas was a very hard Christmas.. Why cause my dad was in the hospital, most people don't know but we almost lose my dad that day. They took him off dialysis, and his body wasn't taken it that well. Now that my dad is okay, the nurses we still keep in contact with told us how scared they were Christmas eve and Christmas day. They didn't think he would make it thought the night. Great to know right, cause when we were there, they never once acted like anything was wrong. I think they were trying to keep our spirits up and hoped we could have a good Christmas.

So long story short, i want to make this Christmas a little more happy.

Normally we go up Christams Eve we go to Idaho and spend Eve with my moms family. Its always been the thing we have done. I look forward to it every year. We play games, give gifts and just hangout as a family. Best thing in the world. Then Chrisatmas morning we open gifts have a great christams breakfast and head back to Utah..

We didnt do that last year so i was really excited to do it this year....

BUT now that i have a little family and a house to call my own. Logan wants to stay here in utah and have a chrisatmas of our own.. Yes i know i should want to do this. I mean Logan is my family and we do have a house. But I'm torn......

I want to spend a GOOD Christmas with my dad.

I want to have that Christmas Eve with my cousins, aunt and uncles.

I want to see my Nephew open gifts up.Cause the only chris i had with him was when he was 2 weeks old.

I miss living in Idaho and seeing my family. and Christmas is the only time we have EVERYONE...

But now i have a house

and

I have an other family to make happy.

I wish i could be two places at once.

This Christmas will be very very HARD and different.

I know i have to start making Christmas of our own, but im having a hard time with that. I guess i need to grow up.

So Christmas this year will be Logan, Connor and myself.

What do you guys do to make your Christmas a little more you?