Dreams

For the past week, i have been having this same dream. Its like a continuous dream.

I have this dream that Logan and i finally moved into our own place and made it a home. He had this amazing job and i got to be a stay at home mommy. I had friends that care about me, and hang out with all the time. I have the perfect little life..

Then the dream is where i am at the hospital. I just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. This little girl looks just like her daddy. Dark hair, dark eyes, dark skin, and just the sweetest little face. I life her up to burp her and she spits all down my shirt. Logan looks at her and says.. "Thats my girl". We finally got to come home, and to see Connor with his little sister is just the best thing in the world. He loves her. He was  mommies big helper. I just cant believe how well i could see this little babies face, i knew just what she looked like, where each line was, what each thing looked like. It was so unreal, but felt like it was living this amazing dream.

In this dream everything was great, i finally felt like where i need to be in life. I had no worries, no drama, nothing.

I know that i cant have the perfect life, but im sure going to try to have the perfect life.
Cause right now might not be so great but i will get there, It will take time but this dream that i keep having will come true. Maybe not tomorrow, or next week, or even next year. BUT it will come true. My life will be perfect in my eyes.

And i cant wait!!

I cant wait to finally have a little girl in my arms. I want to have a baby so bad that it is killing me. But i know right now we arent ready, the time will come that i will hold Mine and Logans baby in my arm. I want my little girl...

Big things

Big things are about to happen..

Lets hope it plans out just like we want it to. So keep your fingers and toes crossed for Logan and I.

Big things.. :)


So anyways i have applying and applying for jobs. I know i have one, but to tell you the truth i cant stand it. But its at least a job.
I had a interview for an amazing job out in Dugway. But with me going on vacation they weren't able to hire me.. BOO. I was so let down. The job was going to be Amazing, it was going to the best thing for my family. But didn't work out. Then i went to for a job at the post office, took the test and everything.. Well i never got a call back. Then i apply for a job at the Chambers...


Well today i got a call.. and guess what..

I GOT IT..!!

Yup I'm pretty excited. I will be making enough for some big changes in our life. Yes it will take a little bit, but I'm excited to see what will happen.

I start June 1st so next Friday. I know this will be a good thing. I will be doing the same thing as i was at the Transcript. I loved it there, so i know this will be great. I'm excited to see what holds for me in the future.

Big changes are about to happen. I will keep you posted.
But remember fingers crossed and toes...

:)

Wild Animal Park

Tueday May 8 We headed over to the Wild Animal Park.

I heard that this park was amazing!

I know that it would be great, i was excited to see more animals then the normal ones here in Utah.

The park was huge. They had this big open place where over 100 animal just hung out. There was anything from Lions to birds. It was fun to drive around to see them all just being normal. The park had big open spaces, and to just see that was great. Connor love it like i knew he would. He was excited to see all the elephants..

There was this place call theCheetha Run.

Where you would be able to see how fast they could really run.

They told us that in just the three steps he would go from 0-45.

It was an 100 meter run, he went from 0-70 back down to 0 in just 5.2 sec.

It was amazing to see it. You could hear each foot step that he took, and even in the video you could hear him breath. It was crazy.

All in all the day was perfect. The park was just as nice as i thought it would be. And my family had a really good time. Just being with Logan and Connor is the best thing in the world. I Love that we are finally having family vacations together..

Next post Sea World..

Oh i just had to Post this picture.. Cause who doesn't love, to see both love of my life's sleeping.. They were sleeping the same way but Connor moved.. Its still a cute picture..

I love my boys.

Beach Time

Beach. What more can i say..

The beach is amazing. Am i right or am i right..

We went to Mission Beach. It was about 10 mintues away from where we were staying.

It is Beautiful..

Last time Connor was at the beach was when he was about 2. And really he doesnt remember it. So this time he was totally in LOVE with it. The whole time he was smiling and laughing and giggling. It made my whole day just seeing how happy he was.

And i loved it for course.

The weather was warm and the water was cold.

But once you got in the water it was fine.

Im not going to go on and on about how amazing the beach was.

So im just going to leave you with TONS of pictures...

Pictures tell the whole story..

I wanna be there so bad..

California bound 2

I thought it would be best to do this day in two different parts. Reason why is cause we took TONS of pictures. I didn't want to go all crazy..

So Monday we headed to Old Town.

I had no clue really what it was. Other then old town i guess that should of hinted..

It was beautiful! It kinda remind me of Mexico. There was so many cute and fun shops, different kinda of food (Well not really it was mostly Mexican), Fun people and just beautiful!!

We headed over to the Catholic church.. Lets just say those churches are just amazingly beautiful..

Logan thought it would be funny to play a joke on my mom. He got down on one knee and we took a picture. Lucky my mom knows me oh to well.. If they EVER happened i would call not text. Haha.

To bad it wasn't the real thing. I think i would of freaked...

We shopped a little and then headed to have some lunch.

The food was great, and shopping of course was wonderful. Barb and i could of stayed there all day and just look at the different shops. But we had the boys with us and they hate shopping. Jerks.

After Old town we headed to the beach...

Next post..

So now ill just leave you with a few pictures..

 

Mothers day

This Mothers day was great!

When i woke up Connor had me Breakfast all ready.

Donuts and OJ is just what i wanted. He told my mom that, that was my most favourites breakfast in the world. He knows his mommy.

About once a week Connor will ask me if i want flowers. I always tell him that i would love flowers. So each day he will go out back or out front and get me some wild flowers. I love it.

Well this mothers day, Connor got me some beautiful flowers. Purple cause that is my favorite color. I told him that it was the best gift ever.. BUT then i got this..

A beautiful necklace.

Connor told me when i opened it that he had the key to my heart always..

It totally made me cry.

Im so blessed to have such an amazing little man in my life.

Here is the sweet card that he gave me.

It said.....

Im Wild about Mommy,

And i know that my mommy is wild about me.

I love you mommy

Happy mothers day

But the things that got me was, his writing..

Look how well he is writing. He is so smart and just so cute.

I love my baby

Oh yea i cant call him baby anymore. He told me that i have to call him dude or Connor. Its cause he isnt a baby anymore.

Sad right cause he will always be my baby...

Like i said this Mothers day was just so great.

Today Connor got home from school and had two more surprise for me.

Something he made at school. I love that he is in school now cause i get cute little things that i will keep forever..

On the flower is says.

Dear Mom,

My love for you grows and Grows and Grows.

Happy Mothers day..

At school he also did a cute little survey.. Here is what it says

My mom is special because: She gives me toys.

I like it when my mom: Plays with me.

My mom can do many things! I think she is best at: Taking me places like California and Sea World and the stores and the Movies.

My mom has a pretty smile. I like to make her smile by: Giving her a hug and a kiss.

My mom is as pretty as a: Princess!

My mom is smart! She even knows: To play with me!

Love Connor

Im so blessed to have Connor in my life! I don't know where i would be without him..

I love you so much Connor!



California bound!

Well i have been MIA for a long time.

Reason why. well ill show you

I have been soaking up the sun, in sunny California!!!

My most favorite place to be.. I really could live in California and just stay at the beach all day long. I wanna move there so bad. I just love it...

So I'm going to try each day to update you on each day i was there.

Cross your fingers i can keep it going.

Sunday May 6th..

We drove there.

All 12 hours long we drove there.

If you know me i hate driving. I mean i even hate to drive to Salt Lake.

For some reason, all a sudden i get car sick.

I hate it. So the whole way there and home i was sick. Lovely right. But totally worth it.

So Saturday Afternoon

Barb, Scott, the girls and Connor left. They stayed the night in St.George, so it would split up the trip for the kids. Wish i would of done that.

Then Sunday morning Logan, Chad and myself left bright and early 6 in the morning.

The way to St.George wasn't to bad for me. We took the back roads and i was able ro sleep for a few hours.

Finally we met up with Barb and the kids.

We didn't even stop, we just met them on the highway.

We knew that we would hit traffic. But we didn't think that we would be in traffic for 3 hours. It took us from Vegas to California about 6 hours. Normally should take 3. It was CRAZY. I swear i was going to shoot someone. With all the crazy traffic, we had to make a pit stop on the side of the road. Well it was an exit. The boys had to pee. We hung out for a little while, and when we were just sitting there, a cop kept driving by us and looking at us. So we started to get ready to leave, well as we were leaving the cop was parked by a tower and Logan took a picture. Well when we looked closer at the picture.........the cop was peeing as well. HAHA it was funny..

 Here is the cop...

You have to click on the picture, so you can see a little better. Haha

 Logan Got a few pictures of us sleeping..

Don't mind how gross i look. Remember i was sick

Finally after a long long drive, we made it to my sisters house!!!!

Of course we had to stop there. How could i not stop by and see my family!

Anyway they were so nice to cook us dinner and let us in their home. It was so nice to see my sister, and the kids. I have missed them so much. Connor was in love being there, he LOVES his aunt Torie. He thinks the world of her... The kids had a blast. Played and played..

Dinner was amazing, and i was so sad to leave. Little Alyssa wouldn't let me go. It was really the first time that she cried over me. Normally it over Aunt Bebe or Grandma and Connor. It was nice to have her not want me to leave.. That little girl is my everything.. 

After we left Tories house, we still had an hour and half drive to get to

SAN DIEGO!!!!

But we finally made it.

As soon as we got to our rooms we crashed..

The trip was so long and took us all day and night but it was totally worth it all..

Next post.

OLD TOWN AND THE BEACH...

The beach it my favorite place to be.