I just need to vent

I don't know whats wrong with me anymore.

I have been so moody everyday. I get mad at my dad, Connor, and just about everyone. All i want to do anymore is just cry. Each time i go to the bathroom all i do it cry. I don't know if its cause I'm stresses, over welled, or what but I'm hating it. I feel like i cant do anything right.

I feel like all i do is wrong or the wrong way, or it could be better. I hate feeling like this. Everything i do isn't good enough.

I just wanna scream, and cry.

I cant handle it anymore. I wanna roll up in a ball and stay there forever, maybe if I'm there things would be a lot better.

I hate this, i hate feeling like i cant improve my life. Yes i know i can go to school i can make my life better. But right now i cant do school, i cant take that time away. I have to be home with my dad, and get hims from appointment to appointment. I have work now i just cant up and leave. But i hate not having money, and falling behind on bills. Even with this new job we will still be behind on bills. Having no money to do whatever, or not having money to save for my own place hurts. I see all my friends and they have moved out and is enjoying their life. Don't get me wrong i do like my life, But I'm ready to be on my own. I want my family.

I feel worthless.

hopeless

over welled

stresses, and just going crazy.

I can only take so much.

I'm so jealous of some people life. All i hear is how wonderful they have it.

I'm truly happy for them, cause i never want people in my shoes. I don't want people to feel the way i feel. But sometimes all i want to say is screw you. ;) really tho I'm not that mean.

I hate fighting all the time with Logan. I think to myself, is this really worth it. Do i truly need to put him thought all this. NO i don't. He needs someone better. He needs someone who isn't moody all the time, who needs that. NO ONE.

I feel like i need to be a better mom to Connor. I don't feel like I'm with him enough and when i am he doesn't listen to me. Ahh i just don't know what to do anymore. I really don't.

I don't want people writing, Chelby you are amazing and will pull thought this.

I just don't want to hear that.

I'm venting and just need to let it all out.

I just need to CRY.. I need a friend that understands me.

I need Logan to be there for me when i feel like this.

Yea i know i have problems and i know I'm crazy but i just don't know how to fully explain it.

I just to scream............

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