4/20

A little over a week ago, i got in a wreck.

Nothing bad but it was still something that scared my crap out of me.

Not once have i ever been in a wreck and i hope i never will be in one.

So we were coming home from my dad theaphy, and we were stopped at the light on main and 1000. We were at a complete stop and then someone hit us from behind. It all happened so fast, my dads hat flew off , my sister hit her head on the back on the seat. Lucky no one got hurt just a little back pain. But from what the girl says she just let go of the break and moved a little forward. Not what i think. I'm sorry but we got hit hard enough to make the hood of her car bent complete up, and my dads hat to fall off.

But we are all okay its been over a week and all our backs are totally fine. Connor was crying and told me, mommy you told me that we would never get in a wreck.. Totally broke my heart.

So my car is a beast and took it like a champ. I only have a few bump. :)

Real Salt Lake

Last week, Logan and I were talking about taken Connor to a Real Soccer game, cause you know he LOVES soccer. So we looked into how much they were and when they would be having a home game again! Well Logan friend from work has season tickets and helped us get some pretty cheap one!

We didn't want to tell Connor what we were going to do. So we kept telling him, Now if you be a good boy all week, mommy and daddy has a big surprise for you!

Well ALLL week he was really good. But each day he would ask us, can i have my surprise yet.

So Saturday we headed into Salt Lake. Connor still not knowing what was going on. We go there and started walking toward the stadium. We finally told him that we were going to a BIG soccer game, and just seeing the look on his face. Like what the heck are you guys talking about!.

He told me but mom i wanted a surprise that i could take him. Little Turkey.

But once we were there be was so EXCITED.. The whole time he wouldn't take his eye off the field! He would yell and scream GO RED, GET THEM RED, GO GO GO. He would throw his arms in the air if they  missed the goal, or if something wrong went on. He would just smile and tell us that this was the best surprise ever and if he ever gets an other surprise he wants it to be a big soccer game again!

Just seeing my little mans eyes light us and the smile on his face all night was worth everything we have been though! He is my whole world and i would do anything for him to just see those eyes light up and that beautiful smile of his!!

I'm so lucky to have him in my life!!!

The game was amazing. They won 3-2 with 4 minute overtime! Connor was so happy they won!!

You make my heart melt

He makes me heart melt!

He always know how to make me laugh and keep me on my toes!

He is my best friend!

And the reason why i live!

I love you money man!

You are momma's world!



Past is the past

There comes a time in your life that you have to forget about the past and let the past be the past.. Right.

Im so happy that i can finally say that.

My past is in the past and thats where im keeping it. I have done things in my life that im not happy about, but dont we all. I wish i could of down a few things a little different but if i didnt do what i did i wouldn't be the person i am today.

Over the last few months i relized that you cant take anything for granted, or you cant let the little things get to you. I need to forgive and forget. As hard as that is i have to. Let the past be over with and move on with my future!

Over the weekend i got a message over facebook for a old friend of mine. 3 years ago some stuff went down and we never talked again. We just went in our different ways. She had her own life and i did my own life. But i missed her. I missed not having a best friend 10 minute's away. Both my best friends live 30000000 miles away. (Brittany&Jennie. damn you girls.)
Us four were the best of friends. We were the 5218.. We did everything together. But after somethings went down we lost our friend.

Long story short. Leah and i went to dinner tonight and settled everything and are starting over. Im happy. I know we will never be as close as we were before, but when we hang out it was like we never disliked each other at all. It was like how we left off. I miss her a lot and im so glad that we are trying to be friends again! Im pretty excited..

Oh and Connor loved her! He didnt seem like he forgot about her also! It was sweet!

Fundraiser

A good family friend, contact us and wanted to host a Fundraiser for my family. With all the bills that are coming in this will be amazing. They are going to host a raffle, potato bar, bingo, and just great time to hang out.
Things for my family have been pretty hard the last few months. Just knowing my dad wasn't going to make it was the hardest day for us.

My dad is my hero and he has done so much for me and my family! Just fighting this battle and still going strong is the best thing he could do for us! Having my dad home each night is a gift.
So helping pay off some of my dad hospital bills is the least i can do. So please help us raise some money for my handsome daddy!

Anything would help, even just coming to say hi to him would be so great!

Here is all the information that you will need to know about the Fundraiser, you can leave a comment if you want to donate anything or get some raffle tickets or even to get hold of me.

Terry Higgins is finally home after a long battle with pneumonia and 13 longs weeks in the hospital. During his battle he became a three time amputee losing his legs and an arm, which caused medical bills to add up quickly.

we will be having a family bingo night at the eagles lodge in tooele along with a raffle to help take some of the burden off his family. raffle tickets are $5 each or 5/$20 bingo tickets are $5 for adults and $3 for kids 10 and under, this will include a potato bar.

if you have any questions feel free to memo myself or Chelby Higgins or you can contact me at 435-830-7308. if you would like to donate, this too would be welcomed and appreciated.

My dad is my hero and such a strong man..
Thanks everyone!

PLEASE SPARED THE WORD!!!

I just need to vent

I don't know whats wrong with me anymore.

I have been so moody everyday. I get mad at my dad, Connor, and just about everyone. All i want to do anymore is just cry. Each time i go to the bathroom all i do it cry. I don't know if its cause I'm stresses, over welled, or what but I'm hating it. I feel like i cant do anything right.

I feel like all i do is wrong or the wrong way, or it could be better. I hate feeling like this. Everything i do isn't good enough.

I just wanna scream, and cry.

I cant handle it anymore. I wanna roll up in a ball and stay there forever, maybe if I'm there things would be a lot better.

I hate this, i hate feeling like i cant improve my life. Yes i know i can go to school i can make my life better. But right now i cant do school, i cant take that time away. I have to be home with my dad, and get hims from appointment to appointment. I have work now i just cant up and leave. But i hate not having money, and falling behind on bills. Even with this new job we will still be behind on bills. Having no money to do whatever, or not having money to save for my own place hurts. I see all my friends and they have moved out and is enjoying their life. Don't get me wrong i do like my life, But I'm ready to be on my own. I want my family.

I feel worthless.

hopeless

over welled

stresses, and just going crazy.

I can only take so much.

I'm so jealous of some people life. All i hear is how wonderful they have it.

I'm truly happy for them, cause i never want people in my shoes. I don't want people to feel the way i feel. But sometimes all i want to say is screw you. ;) really tho I'm not that mean.

I hate fighting all the time with Logan. I think to myself, is this really worth it. Do i truly need to put him thought all this. NO i don't. He needs someone better. He needs someone who isn't moody all the time, who needs that. NO ONE.

I feel like i need to be a better mom to Connor. I don't feel like I'm with him enough and when i am he doesn't listen to me. Ahh i just don't know what to do anymore. I really don't.

I don't want people writing, Chelby you are amazing and will pull thought this.

I just don't want to hear that.

I'm venting and just need to let it all out.

I just need to CRY.. I need a friend that understands me.

I need Logan to be there for me when i feel like this.

Yea i know i have problems and i know I'm crazy but i just don't know how to fully explain it.

I just to scream............

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Dentist

Today my little man had to go to the dentist to get some cavities filled. He had two big ones on his left said that needed to have caps over them.

 Yes i feel like the worst mother in the world!

So an hour before his appointment we had to give him this drink, it helps make them more relaxed. To me i didn't think that it really did anything. In tell they put the little mask on him. As soon as he started breathing that in, that's when he started getting a little loopy.

He did AMAZING....

I was expecting the worst. I swear that he wouldn't let they touch him one bit.

BUT i was totally wrong.

The gave him two shots, Connor didn't even flinch.

and then they them started working one his teeth. Connor just continued watching TV. His little arm kept falling down so i would have to pick it up, and hold it so it wold stop falling. And then we were talk to him and he would laugh at almost everything. It was so funny. His lips got all big, and he would touch them and say i cant fill anything.

Then after everything was done, he got up and was ready to go. He didn't even seem loopy at all. He got a cute little super hero cap and mask. :)

He was such a brave boy today.

But I'm one proud mommy!

I couldn't believe how well he did.

21 days!

Whats been going on in our crazy life..

Well lets see.

Tuesday Our poor little Mya got Fixed. No more puppies for us..
I was wanting to have puppies one more time, but Logan was not wanting it at all. I guess he won this fight.
But poor little Mya was in so much pain the first few days. She was throwing up and just shaking like crazy. We were able to give her pain pills but they didn't seems to be working. She slept a lot, and after the first two days she was 100% back to herself. I'm kinda sad that we cant have puppies anymore. I loved the whole experience, and just watching something living be born and into this world. Yes it was sad to let all the puppies go but i loved those 8 weeks with those cute little things.. So the Garcia family wont have puppies for a very long time.

Next Connor had his first soccer game!!!

His team is called the lighting sharks, and he is number 9. It was FREZZZZING the whole game, but not once didn't Connor say it was cold. I had to keep wrapping him up in a blanket and he would get mad at me cause he didn't want them on. Little dork. So Connor started!!! Then he made a goal! He was having such a blast he thought it would be a great idea to do a somer sault in the middle of the field and in the middle of the game. Yea my child is a little dork. :) So the finally score was 5-3. Sharks won! I was a proud mommy. Oh and when the game was over, Connor CRIED his eyes out. He was soo sad that the game was over. I'm not even kidding he was crying forever. I guess that means he loves soccer right.?

On Tuesday We went to Health Women's. We go every year and this year the speaker was Elizabeth Smart. It was amazing to hear her story from HER. She didn't go into much but what she was able to tell us, was just crazy. I couldn't believe what she all went thought, and to pull out like she has. IT was great to go up and meet her.

Then i just have to share this picture from last night. Each night Dis, sleeps with Connor and in the middle of the night he thinks he need to make his way over to Logan and I. Well Last night i went to bed early and Logan took this picture of us. I had no clue that he was even there. I guess my boy will always cuddle with me.

And today i went shopping with Barb. Its always so nice to get out and not have to worry about anything. I got some super cute clothes for California. I got this really adorable dress, and if you know me i never wear dresses. But I'm going to try this out. I LOVE IT.

Oh and speaking of California. 21 DAYS..

I really cant wait, a vacation is really something i need. 21 days. Yay

I guess that's about all that has happened over the last week.

So

Ill leave you with a picture of my favorite little man, and me!

School Pictuers

Connor got his school pictures!

He is so damn cute, he is just to cute for himself!

I love it.

Connor Michale Higgins

Pre-school

2011-2012

4 years old.

Loves playing soccer, watching cars 2, riding his bike.

He loves ice cream and pizza.

Weights 36 pounds and is 3'4 inches.

His best friend, Mommy, Brody, Grace, and Papa.

My little baby isn't a baby anymore.

Getting school pictures and everything.

I love my baby with all i have!

Sorry the pictures aren't the best but it will work for now!

About time

Its been 6 months..

6 LONG months, without a job.

and FINALLY i got one..!!!

YAY me.

Its nothing to big but hey its something right.

I will be working at Ruby Family Dollar Store.. I'm really excited that i will be making some kind of money, anything helps. The hours will be great and they are going to work with me on my dad. I still need to be home with him during the day, so i will work nights. Which is fine with me. I'm really excited but kinda nervous. Reason why. Well i haven't worked for 6 months, and i haven't left my dad side for 4 months. I think I'm going to go crazy. But we need the income. BAD..

So go me for getting a job FINALLY :)

Ill be starting April 24. yay

Spring Break

Yes my little pre-schooler had spring break. We didn't do much but hang out in the sun!

Over the past week, we have been spending as much time outside, while its nice and warm.

70+ Degrees has been just amazing!

So walking and parks has been our lifes.

and of course i have been taken a few pictures of my adorable son!

 I'm just so lucky to have him.

The sun has been great to be out in, even better cause its only April.

I cant wait for California, it will be like this all the time!

so here are a few pictures of my baby and out park date.

Oh and im feel very good about my body... Well some what..

So im happy to say that i can finally wear something like this!

And i feel good about it. :)

Go me. hahah

Easter

HAPPY EASTER FROM THE GARCIA'S!!

Easter weekend was a pretty busy weekend for us. Saturday we had a few Easter egg hunts. Connor was really excited to go and hang out with a lot of new people. I was a little excited also, to met all the wonderful mommies. Its nice to start meeting new people, and getting out more.

Anyway,

We also got to meet the adorable Easter Bunny. Connor doesnt like any of the real people, so mommy had to get into the pictuer. I didnt mind, i think it turned out pretty dang cute.

 Then after we got home from the first easter egg hunt, we colored our eggs.

It was a blast, at the easter egg hunt connor got a lot of the coloring kits, so mommy didnt have to buy any. GO CONNOR. He is big into coloring his eggs, he loves to get dirty, who would of thought huh. Heck i have an adorable son!

 

Easter Morning. Bummer Logan had to work, so he wasn't able to wake up with us. But Daddy bunny made sure that everything was ready for Connor when he woke up!

This year Connor started school, so he got

Soccer ball, shinguard, soccer socks, Puss & boots, sunglasses, outfit, yo-yo, and Jerky.

Yes there was no Candy in his basket.

reason why cavities.

 

 Connor was super excited to see what the Easter bunny had left him. The night before he made sure that he went to bed early so the bunny could come. He woke up and the first thing he started doing was looking for eggs. I told him that he couldn't start looking in till Aunt Bebe wakes up. So right after that Connor made sure that Aunt Bebe was awake. He knew where a lot of eggs were before bebe was up! Little turkey! :)

Connor thought it was the coolest thing that the bunny hide eggs in his toys and his guiter..

Then after breakfast, we got ready to go have Easter dinner down with Bobbie. (Logan's mom). We go down there every year. Its always fun cause we do an Easter egg hunt outside for the three kids. This year was really nice cause my mom and dad were able to come down. It was my dad first time going out to someone else house. HE did amazing, getting up and down the stairs and being around all the people!

I love when both our families are together, and i love that they can get along.

I sure hope you all had a wonderful Easter weekend like i did!

Im so thankful for all the amazing people in my life!!

Oh and by the way over the weekend I got myself

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a nice new laptop...

So know what that means, MORE blogging for this girl! Yay

Whats been going on.

Yea i notice that i haven't blogged in a week. 

It been a crazy and busy week. Like always.

but i finally have sometime to set down and blog a little.. 

This is how i felt! 

Finally i got my taxes back. What a big weight off our shoulders. Let me tell ya, getting back what i got back has helped us out so much! With me not working we are falling behind on bills. But now i have been able to pay off 4 bills. Yes 4 bills. ahhhh im in heaven now. not really. But it feels so good to have those all paid off. I can breath a little better now.

It has been so nice out side, that i have been going for walks each night. We have also been going to the park alot. Connor is loving this warm weather, so am i. This is my favorite time of the year, warm weather means happy Chelby. The winter just makes me a grumpy pants. But im happy to say that i even got some sun on my white skin! :) Isnt my son just so adorable..

Now talking about my weight. :-/ Well its still going good. Im working as hard as i can. I can tell a difference with my muscles. Ive had to move up with what i was lifting, so that's always good. I think ive become a nut with working out. I think about it all the time. Ill notice when im standing in line i'll start lifting my hills up and working on my calves. Then ill be laying on the floor and work on my belly. I think about it all the time. I guess its a good thing, cause before i would cry just thinking about working out. I can now say I LOVE working out. It makes me feel so GOOD. I think i will keep it up..

Over the week my Great aunt Shelly and Great uncle Doug, came here to see my dad. The last time my Aunt Shelly saw my dad was when she was saying goodbye to him. (When we didn't think he would make it) So its been a really long time. My Uncle Doug just finished his 4th deployment. We haven't seen him in over a year. My dad and Uncle Doug are so close. My dad isn't just a nephew to him, they are more like brothers! So when my Uncle Doug found out about my dad he wasn't able to leave to come see my dad. He was having the hardest time with that. He thought he was going to lose his best friend. Worst feeling ever. My Uncle Doug had my Aunt Shelly send him a picture of the two of them, so he could wear the picture under his badge. He said each time he looked down he would see my dad, and know to never give up, even when things are hard. It was amazing. So it was great to have them here. My dad hadn't smiled that much for a while. It was so good to see him all happy. 

I colored my hair again! Haha

I wanted something different. So i added some Blonde to it. I don't have a good picture so this one is going to have to do!

ONE MONTH TILL CALIFORNIA!!!!!!

I cant wait.. Im super excited. :)

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And i promise ill do a blog about my dads arm. Soon, Maybe. :)