A little of everything.

Ya this is going to be a post about everything. I just have so much on my mind lately.
So its going to be a random and point less post..

So on Saturday last week i found out that I'm going to be an other AUNT to a beautiful baby (GIRL, that's what I'm hoping for). My sister Torie is 4 weeks pregnant. I got a phone call Saturday morning and it was Alyssa. She was just talking to me like any other day, told me that she got all A's in school and that she was about to lose an other tooth.. Then just out of the blue she said. My mommy is pregnant again! Haha I paused for a few minutes.. I was in total shocked cause Torie and Mike both said that they were done having babies! Haha they were wrong. Opppss. But I'm so over excited to have an other beautiful baby in this family! I cant wait to see if it will be a little girl or boy! The only things that sucks is that we wont be apart of the pregnancy, or the birth! Wait I'm going to try my hardest to be there for the birth! It will be right about mine and my sister birthday so i think that would be the best 21st birthday gift ever is to be with my sister when she has the baby! Oh i cant wait!!
Can you tell I'm a little excited!! :)

Next
Friday i went to the Women's expo center. It was a fun girls night to just get out and be around girls. We walked to all the different booths and checked everything out. Then we got to the Psyche, Ive always been a little weird about these things but Barb had been to one once before and she said that she was amazed of how much they really know. So Barb sat down to get it done and i was shocked on what she was telling Barb. First she said that Barb was an amazing woman, and that she had just taken on a big job, something with kids. (Barb has taken in Logan 2 little cousin), She said that barb has three kids, and the first born died right after birth ( Logan older sister died a week after birth) Then she said that she has been married more then once. (Right) And he 2 husband died from a heart attack  (Logan Dad) and that the son of this dad was worried about having a heart attack. (true) She said that this son is in a committed relationship, and when he got in the relationship it wasn't just her who came into his life.(True) She said that they will be getting married in the next few year.. (YES) and that HE loves these two people more then anything in this world.. (AWWW) Anyways there was a lot more that she had said but ill leave it at that and get one to mine.
So after Barb got hers done i thought i would do it.. I was scared to know what she was going to say. Haha. She first screamed OH NO!!!! It looks like you are very independent and don't let people in! You always have a wall up and wont let people in easy cause you have been hurt really bad and its hard for you to trust anyone.. (Yea i guess that is really all true.) She said that i was young when i had my child and that the father left us cause he was scared and wasn't ready for this. (You all know the story there) She also told me that i need to watch my health.. ( umm) She said that there will be a BIG decision in my life here soon and when it comes DON'T DO IT.. (uh that kinda freaks me out.) She said that my man that I'm with now i will marry and when we get older we will travel the world. All over the world. Pretty neat i say.. She wasn't able to get into me as much she said it was cause i had my wall up. But i think i would go back to one of those. I thought it was really neat to see that they can do this...:) I guess we will see right.

Moving on
This year we are really having a hard time with money. With me not having a job i will be shocked if we can have a Christmas or even a birthday for Connor. I'm having a really hard time with that. I just sit here and think how could my son not have a birthday or a Christmas. I can imagine that. Just to see the look on his face would be the hardest thing in the world. We are trying to come up with something to at least get him a few gifts, but only time will tell i guess...
Speaking of Christmas last year Logan and i talked about how we will spend Christmas with both families. Last year we had Thanksgiving with his family and Christmas with mine. Well Christmas Eve with my family. and Christmas day with his family. This year we will be spending Thanksgiving with my family and allll Christmas With his family. I guess I'm being a little selfish but i want to spend it with my family i think last year wasn't fair for my family to only get us half the time. But i guess this is what goes on when you have to different family in two different states. I know that once Christmas gets here ill be more then fine with it cause all Christmas is, is spending time with the ones you love. I know it will be hard at first but i need to also put myself in Logan shoes and if we went to my family what would he be feeling. Its just something you have to do when you are in a relationship. Its just right now hard to get my finger wrapped around the fact that I wont be spending Christmas with my family this year..

Lets just say that I'm so excited for the coming up Holidays!! I love this time of the year, if only it didn't have to be freezing Cold. I'm excited for BLACK FRIDAY, I'm excited for CONNOR BIRTHDAY, CHRISTMAS, NEW YEARS, MINE AND LOGAN 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY I'm excited to sit in the house on a cold night and just curl up in a blanket and watch movie with Logan, I'm excited for Christmas music, and the smell of the food, and just being with wonderful family! I'm just over excited for this time of the year! I think about it and i just want to jump up and down! HAHA :)

Well there is my pointless and random post! Hope you all have a wonderful Thursday night :)