Shinning star.

Im having a pretty hard time with my aunt passing.

I know that she was sick but i just cant wrap around that she is really gone.

When my grandma died (My dads Mom) my Aunt Joy was really sick also, they were both in the hospital at the same time. We didnt think both would make it. We did lose my grandma. So my aunt has been pretty sick for the last 10 years plus. She drank a lot took pills and just wasnt doing good. I just cant believe that she is really gone.

When i was little about 7 and 8. I was really close with my aunt, i saw her every weekend she would watch us. I was always looked forward to seeing her. She would help us making christmas cookie at grandpa, she would help open gifts at christmas, she was always making us laugh. She was the fun one to hang out with. Its just seemed we all were close to her.

But when i moved everything changed. I didnt see her that much at all. I saw her maybe once a year if i was lucky. My dad and his whole side didnt talk much after we moved, and that was very hard on me. So now im thinking all those years i could of had more time with her.. All those laugh, christmas, birthdays, all that i missed, she missed. I just wish that after we moved all of us would of stayed close. Its breaks my heart to know she didn't know who i was after i become a teenager, and when i was an adult. She didn't get to know Connor or Logan. She didnt know who i was becoming.

But now i know that she is always with me and will be my shinning star and always watch over all of us! I miss all those time i had with her before this happened. I remember christmas 2010 was the last time i ever saw her. She told me how beautiful i looked and how happy i was. But i knew at that time she wasn't doing very good. Im just happy i got to see her once more im so happy i got to hug her and kiss her and tell her how much she meant to me.. I LOVE YOU AUNT JOY...

Now im making sure i tell everyone that i love how much they mean to me. Im not taking life for granted anymore, im living each day to the fullest, im loving with all my heart and not letting the little things get to me. My aunt Joy has change the way i look at life, you never know when life is going to change and you always want the people you love know how much they mean to you...

I love you so much Aunt Joy

Thursday will be the last day i see you but no matter what you will always live in my heart and all the wonderful memories.

Always watch over us...

♥