She came to me. ♥

My grandma came to me last night..

For the last 3 night i have been having dreams that

i was pregnant.. ( I'm not pregnant)

Everyone has been leading up to me having the baby

1st night it was just the start of labor.

2nd night i was getting the wonderful medicine called Epidural.

3rd night i was pushing the baby out. I looked over to my right side and there stood my beautiful grandma. Once i saw her i stared to cry like a baby. She told me "push Chelbs you can do this I'm here for you!" Best word i could ever hear. The next thing i knew she was gone and i woke up.

I really think it was just a re-caps of when i had Connor cause it was like i was re-living it again. So now i know my grandma was there when i brought my wonderful son into this world. She was making sure that Connor got to my arms safe and sound. I knew that while i was pregnant my grandma was taking care of him tell she knew i was ready for him.

All the stupid things i did while i was pregnant, i know that my grandma was holding him so tight that nothing would happen to him.

THANK YOU SO MUCH GRANDMA!

I miss you more then anything, and i think about you all the time. I know your here with me :)

(Not a very good picture, but i love it.)

I found this poem and i just fell in love with it!!

hope you like it.

You can shed tears that she is gone

or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that

she'll come back

or you can open your eyes and see all

she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you

can't see her

or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn back on tomorrow and

live yesterday

or you can be happy for tomorrow

because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that

she's gone

or you can cherish her memory and let it

live on.

You can cry and close your mind,

be empty and turn your back

or you can do what she'd want:

smile, open your eyes, love and go on!