24 for days!

I have so many emotions running thought my head right now. I feel like i have never done this before and im trying to get myself ready for something i have done. 

Yes i know it has been 6 long years and 6 years ago i was still a little baby myself. But i think to myself 

"Why are you freaking out like this Chelby" 

~Im scared that i wont be able to do the labor and that im going to puss out and get the epidural, which is fine and all but i want to be able to go without it as long as i can.

~I'm scared that im going to tear. With Connor my doctor was awesome enough to stay in the room with me to massage down below. I told my new doctor about this and she said she does the same thing. But im still scared that im going to tear cause i feel like little Izaac isn't going to be so little.

~ I'm scared of becoming a momma of TWO. How am i going to be able to take the time with both my boys and make sure they both know how much they mean to me and how important it is to have an amazing bound with each one of them. Will i love one differently then the other one and will they be able to notice it?

~ I'm scared i wont be able to breastfeed like i want to. I never tried to do this with Connor, only because i was still in high school and didn't want to take the time to have to pump at school. Awkward right!!! But this time i have study and study everything about breastfeeding. I know its going to take time and take patients, but what if i cant do this!

~ I'm scared to go back to work after my 6 weeks off. Who is going to watch little Izaac. My dad wont be able to cause well he has one kinda good arm and no legs. He wouldn't be able to change or feed little man. So i have to start thinking of who is going to take care of my baby. I hate feeling like someone else is raising him more then i am. What if they get him on to a routine that doesn't work with me. Or what if they don't feed him the breast milk like i want them to. Or what if Izaac think they are his momma.. It just breaks my heart to think about that. 

~ I'm scared my husband and i might drift apart. I know our love will grow much more once we have Izaac, but there is always that "What if".

~ I'm scared i wont be able to keep my house clean and laundry picked up. Yes i know i wont have the cleanest house on the block but i also don't want the dirtiest.

I know im getting myself all worked up over nothing. But i just want whats best for my family and baby. I want to be the mom of the year and the wife of the year. I just want everyone to be happy.. 

I feel like im becoming a mom for the first time and i have no clue what i am doing anymore. 

35 Weeks

What's up with Baby this week? 

35 Weeks.

Our little man is weighing in at a little over 5 pounds

and about 18 inches long.

The size of Honey Melon 

 Because it's so snug in your womb, he isn't likely to be doing somersaults anymore, but the number of times he kicks should remain about the same. His kidneys are fully developed now, and his liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete — he'll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.
 Congratulations! You’re now carrying over 5 pounds of baby-goodness - not counting their amniotic fluid, the umbilical cord, or the placenta itself. Developmentally, your wee womb-tenant has the fat-factory running at full tilt while their digestive system puts the finishing touches on critical organs in preparation for their first meal (remember - before birth, all of their nutrition was blood via the umbilical cord). With their first meal in mind, it's time to look forward to one of the most important things you'll do for your infant - namely, keeping them alive with nothing more than your breasts.

 Symptoms?  Wells lets just say this week has been the worst!!!

Im very very emotional, really i cry on a dime over nothing.

I cant breath, even when i talk i lose my breath

pressure down below,

Im pretty much ready to be DONE!!!

Gender? Handsome little boy!

Excited For?

Getting to meeting my little Izaac!

Maternity Clothes? BEST FRIENDS!!!!

Sleep? What the heck is this thing you call sleep???

Im getting none of that around this household. :(

Movement? Lots and lots!! He is like a little kicking ninja. It so neat to watch my belly move like the waves.

Belly Button Status? OUTIE.. 

Missing Anything?

Breathing

Sleep!

Milestones? 

Making it to 35. 

Cravings? Nothing, I just like to eat anything..

Weight Gain?  30 YUCK!!!! 

This was 34 weeks and 3 days and 35 weeks and 2 days

I think i have dropped and gotten bigger!!  

Doctor appointment: 35 weeks and 6 days.

So on Friday i went in for my weekly appointments!! Yes i said weekly, cant believe its already that time. 

Well this time i was stripped down from the waste so they could do the strep test and i will get those back this next appointment. They also checked to see if i was dilated at all. Come to find out i'm dilated to a TWO and 50% tinned out!!! YAHOO. I knew that i was at least going to be dilated a little bit cause of all the pressure i have been feeling the last few days.

Im measuring right on track and little Izaac is already weighing 6.5 pounds!!! :)

My doctor also told me about what i should pack for our hospital stay and how excited she is to deliver me! I swear this doctor is a give from god! She is amazing. 

After i left the hospital i just felt a little different. So once i got home i just hang out and rested a little. 

The night i had the worst sleep of all time.I couldn't get comfortable and it hurt to move anyway i would.

Saturday morning was a pretty good morning. I got up ate some breakfast and headed into town with my mom and sister. We had a birthday party that afternoon and we needed to get a gift for the party. I was walking pretty slow cause how low he was. 

Once we got to the party i was feeling pretty good. Connor was swimming and i just sat and watched him have fun! I stood up and felt a huge kick and just a ton of pressure down below. I didn't think anything of it cause i had been feeling that a lot. Once i got home i went to the bathroom and as i sat down i head a big plop. I looked right away and there was my mucus plug. Not a lot but you could tell that it was that. 

Kinda freaking out i went and told Logan and my mom. I had plans that night to go to Salt Lake with my little sister for the Utes Gym. I didn't want to tell her i didn't want to go cause she has bought us season tickets. 

So i went anyways and the whole time i was so uncomfortable. I was walking so slow and i was having braxton hicks or full on contractions. My right side was killing me from my hip bone all the way up to my boobs. I couldn't take a deep breath and i was just miserable. I was so happy when it was finally over, i knew i was going to be able to go home and sleep. The drive home was even worst. I felt like i was going to need to turn around and head to the hospital. But i didn't want to go to the hospital and be sent home again for nothing. I didn't want to feel stupid like i did last time. So i sucked it up and went home. I dropped my sister off at her house and walked in to talk to my mom. She told me over and over again that i should call my doctor and see what she has. I didn't listen and just went home to go to bed.

That night was bad i would turn and it felt like i was trying to move a huge rock from side to side. My heartburn was bad and i always felt like i needed to pee. So pretty much i didnt get more then 3 hours of sleep. I told Logan that if it stayed like this throughout the morning, we needed to go to the hospital. I was trying to time the contractions but it was hard to. The pain was always there, it would get stronger but it was never leaving. 

Sunday we had plans to go to Church and then go into salt lake to get some last minute things for me and the baby. When i woke up i didn't want to get out of bed but i knew how much going to Church meant to my in laws and my husband. So i sucked it up and headed to Church. Still having the same pain but it was not as strong as the night before. After church we went to target to get some things for me and Izaac. While i was trying on clothes i felt a huge kick and then i felt like i peed a little bit. I hurried and went to the bathroom to see if i needed to pee. I was pretty embarrassed cause i didn't want to tell my mother in law that i just peed myself. Well when i went to the bathroom i didn't have to pee, but yet my underwear was wet. I text Logan and he was kinda freaking out. Asking if we need to get our stuff and call the doctor. I told him lets wait and see if i leak more or if i just really peed myself. 

Once i got home everything kinda quite down, i was still in pain but nothing like Saturday. I was finally able to get some sleep last night. Thank the lord. 

But this morning i  woke up with my underwear wet again. It wasn't bad to where it was wet in the bed but i had to change my undies. I know i need to call my doctor but i don't want to call and feel stupid when she says that its nothing and i just need to wait it out. I am still hurting on my right side and its starting to move to my left side. But its not strong, its just there. 

I have a feeling this little man is going to be here before we know it. I'm really tired of being pregnant. I just want to hold my Izaac so bad!!! 

34 Weeks

What's up with Baby this week? 
34 Weeks.

Our little man is weighing in at a little over 4.5 pounds
and about 18 inches long.
The size of a Cantaloupe




He fat layers — which will help regulate her body temperature once she's born — are filling her out, making her rounder. He skin is also smoother than ever. He central nervous system is maturing and her lungs are continuing to mature as well. If you've been nervous about preterm labor, you'll be happy to know that babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who have no other health problems generally do fine. They may need a short stay in the neonatal nursery and may have a few short-term health issues, but in the long run, they usually do as well as full-term babies. See what your baby looks like this week. our amazing baby is on the move! Until now, your wee womb-squatter's been living fairly high up in your poor stretched-out womb - blithely compressing your poor lungs and internal organs. This week your baby's going to pack their tiny bags and make the epic shifting move to your pelvis - commonly referred to as the time when baby "drops". If you haven’t noticed it already, you’ll be feeling the weight shift indicating your baby is most likely out of breech position (if they're being stubborn, check out 17 Ways To Turn a Breech Baby) with their head now resting on your pubic bone.

 When baby drops this may also give you some horrific stabbing back pain as they press on your sciatic nerve. If that's the case, get off your feet and try to do some spine-lengthening stretches to help your baby move OFF that poor throbbing nerve. In developing internal-organ news: although not quite fully formed, your little poop-factory's liver is now capable of processing a certain amount of waste. Because your baby's liver is not quite birth-ready, it's common for newborns to get a case of mild and harmless jaundice (signaled by a slight yellowing of the skin). Jaundice is the result of your baby's body producing more bilirubin (a by-product of blood production) than the liver can currently breakdown, leading to a subtle yellow tinge that goes away in a few days. Babies born earlier than their due date tend to have moderate to severe jaundice, which - in the hospital, will be treated via light therapy to help their body break the bilirubin down. For home-birthers, jaundice is easily dealt with by increased breastfeeding (to help their body pass the bilirubin) and "naked time" for baby in a warm sunlit area for 10 minute intervals throughout the day until it disappears.




 Symptoms?  Wells lets just say this week has been the worst!!!
Im very very emotional, really i cry on a dime over nothing.
 Heartburn as been really bad this week. I have woken up gagging about three times cause its so bad.
I cant breath, even when i talk i lose my breath
pressure down below,
feet swelling,
back killing,
oh and legs are killing me still.
Im pretty much ready to be DONE!!!

Gender? Handsome little boy!


Excited For?

Getting to meeting my little Izaac!
I have had about three friends have their babies this week and i just cant wait till its my turn. Its so close by so far away! 

Maternity Clothes? BEST FRIENDS!!!!

Sleep? What the heck is this thing you call sleep???
Im getting none of that around this household. :(

Movement? Lots and lots!! He is like a little kicking ninja. It so neat to watch my belly move like the waves.

Belly Button Status? OUTIE.. Over the past week, Logan has noticed that you can really see my belly button from the outside of my shirt. 

Missing Anything?
Wine
Breathing
My long HOT bubble baths
Sleep!

   

Milestones? 

Making it to 34 weeks.
6 Weeks to go..

Cravings? Nothing, I just like to eat anything..

Weight Gain?  25 Pounds.But im sure that is going to changed once i go back to the doctor next week.
After this next appointment i will start going in once a week!! Crazy to know that im that close to having him!!!

Im getting so excited but yet so scared! :)