Ryan Paul Garcia

Well here i am again talking about a death in the family..

I feel like in the last few months this is all i post about.. 

death.

and I'm tired of it. 

I think 6 in a year is far to many..

My heart hurts.

RYAN PAUL GARCIA

39 years old

Most of you don't know that Logan had an other older brother. RYAN. He was Sam (Logan dad) Son. Sam was married before he was married to Barb. And that where Ryan came from.. 

Anyways When Logan was growing up Ryan lived with them most of his life. On and off. So Logan grew up knowing Ryan and being with Ryan. About a year before Sam died Ryan went off and tried to do his own thing. Long story short he got into drugs and didn't keep in touch with ANY of his family. Sad right, Well when Sam died Logan saw him for about a month after and then Ryan didn't want anything to do with family again! So for 9 year Logan hasn't had anything to do with his brother. Not Logan choice but Ryan's. Logan tried and tried to reach out to be with his brother again but Ryan wanted nothing with his family.. So in the three years i have never meant Ryan or really know anything about him. That makes me really sad. I look at this picture and think that we would of gotten along so well. Logan would of had another brother to talk to and have fun with...

The story goes on and on but i wont keep going.. 

So yesterday i got a call from Barb saying that she had some bad news. 

Ryan had died. 

My heart just dropped.

I then started worrying cause i didn't know how Logan was going to take it.

Logan is the kind of person who holds EVERYTHING inside and doesn't show his true feelings. So i was worried.

Barb said that Ryan just Friday got out of a 90 day Rehab, she said that they don't know what the cause was but they think it was a heart attack. Logan's Grandpa, as well as his Dad died from a heart attack. Ryan had, had 2 in years before. So it a high chance thats what it could of been. 

When Logan got home, we told him and he took it okay. He was mad, He was mad that Ryan wanted nothing to do with him, mad that Ryan didn't want a relationship with anyone. I think it just hurt him that he didnt have the chance to be brothers with him. 

I know I didnt get to know Ryan like i wish i was able to. But i know that he was an amazing man, If he was anything like his dad he was very strong. I wish more then anything he is with his dad and being able to start a NEW and BETTER relationship with him. And i know one day Logan will be able to share that with BOTH of them.. RYAN may you always rest in peace! You will be missed by so many people, and i wish i was able to meet you, and you meet connor i know he would of loved you. Watch over us and tell Sam we love him and miss him!

Fly high with you dad and always watch over your BROTHER Logan.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Sock Bun?

Umm i saw this on a blog i follow and i thought maybe this could really work. 

Well im going to try it tonight and will let you know how it turns out tomorrow.. 

I hope it works cause my hair doesnt curl worth crap. ;)

Wish me Luck.

Try it out maybe it different with each hair.. Maybe

Disney on Ice

I think we have became the pro at Disney on Ice.

Even tho we have been quite a few time, i still get as excited as the first time. I know that Connor loves it so we will keep going till Connor is board with them.. :) Maybe..

I love that we are luck enough to be able to go out and do these things with Connor, i want Connor to always look back at his childhood and love ever minute of it.

Anyways The show was cute as always!! I loved it, but Logan said its getting to girly and he didn't like it at all.. I guess we might lose a person on the way, oh well Connor and I will go together. :0

I'll leave you with a few pictures from our night.

Didn't take much cause they are all on my phone

cause stupid me lost my camera AGAIN!!!!. ;(