Sunday, October 10, 2010

Day 8 - A moment

Well today i need to talk about moments? I thought long about this one.
But my favorite moment would have to be when i gave birth to Connor. The best day of my life.
As you all know i was 16 when i had Connor. My whole pregnancy i just kept it to myself no one knew. I thought the my family would disown me cause i was so young. I was a dumb teenager that was scared. So finally when i was 7 month pregnant i told my mom, we were scared for me and the baby we had no clue what would happen!. Going to that first ultrasound i was excited and nervous, i didnt know if my baby would be okay. They told us that he was fine and there was nothin to worry about. I was due December 13, 2007. I was going to for a doctor on the 17 to schedule when i needed to have a induction. They thought that i would need a c-section cause my pelvic was really small and didn't think that baby would make it thought, my doctor said that we would try to have a natural birth but if it came down to it would we have to do a emergency c-section. I did NOT want that. But December 16 i started to have contractions, not bad but i knew that's what they were. I remember walking in wal-mart and having to stop every 5 min cause they were getting really bad. I wanted to stay home as long as i could, i took a bath and that helped a little. That night i slept in my little sister room so i didn't have to walk up and down the stairs. My mom stayed in the room with me and when i would start to have my contraction she would rub my back.. (ahh it helped so much). I held it out till 3:00 AM. I needed to go to the hospital. My mom and sister Torie came with me. I was already dilated to a 3, they got me all monitored up and that when my contraction started bad! I held out as much as i could, when they got worst my sister told me to hold on to something as tight as i was in pain and breath through my nose and boy did that help. About 9 is when i finally got my epidural. I was so happy once i got that. I was able to sleep cause i needed all the energy i could get. I remember i couldn't move my left leg at all and it was freaking me out! While i was sleeping they came in and said they needed to break my water cause i was only dilated to a 7. It was about 2 or so when Connor Heart rate went really down so they put me on oxygen. I was not just dilated to a 8. It was at 4 when i was fulling dilated to a 10 and ready to push! My doctor told me to push for awhile and we would find out if we need a c-section. After 45 minute of pushing my beautiful 7lb 12 oz and 21 in, baby boy was born! Holding him for the first time was the best feeling anyone could feel! Right after i had him everyone left and it was just Connor and me by far the best day of my life!


Friday, October 8, 2010

Day 7 -my Definition on Love

Defending love is hard, cause when love you someone you always say I love you, love is a feeling that you cant explain.. But i will do the best i can..
I have unconditional love for all these people.

Love is when you still get butterfly's

Love is when you would die for them

Love is when you can act your self around them

Love is when you can tell them anything

Love is when you can laugh 24/7 with them

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Day 6- Boyfriend

My Love
Logan Sean Garcia 19 till the 22ND and then he will be 20. :)
He parents are Sam and Barb Garcia! He has two older brother but really only talks to one. He is so quite when you first met him, but once you get to know him and once he get comfortable with you he wont shut up. He has such a great humor, and i love that about him. He is happy all the time and always smiling. We give each other shit 24/7 . If you didn't know us you would think that we fought all the time. But that's just how we are. When Logan was 12 he lost his dad to a heart attack, i know it was the hardest thing he will ever go through! He misses his dad every and wishes he was able to be here and see what he has done and what he will do, but deep down he know that his dad is there every step of the way. Logan is the love of my life. I couldn't see my life without him! I never thought that i could love someone this much and i fall in love with him more and more every day! He love me even when i look like crap and wearing my fat pant and bagging shirt with my hair up in a pony he still tell me that i look beautiful, and he wouldn't change a thing about me. He love me for who i am not what i have done. He never judge me or say bad thing about my past. We have had our time where we were close to breaking up but that is what has gotten us so much closer. Every time we kiss i still get the butterfly in my stomach and my heart beats like crazy, i love that i still get that feeling like its always our first kiss. I love you Logan more then you will ever know! I cant wait till forever!!


(Baby Logan)
He is so cute i love this picture :)