An Other Angle Flew

Sunday Morning at 3:30am, a beautiful angle flew across the sky.

My Aunt Norma went to be with her Husband, Parents and Sisters.

Wednesday night we got a called that my Aunt had been taken to the hospital cause she was having a hard time breathing.

My aunt had been dealing with COPD for some years and her heart had started acting up as well.

They wanted to do some scans to see what was causing all the heart problems and when the test came back they found a HUGE Mass on her right lung.

Come to find out she had Lung Cancer.

Durning the night she had a heart attack and was put on life support tell all her kids could come down to see her. We knew that we wanted to head down but we had to wait till Friday so we didn't have to miss work.

Friday afternoon we got a call, saying that we need to hurry up here so we could say our goodbye.

Her kids decided to take her off life support and wanted to let God take her when he knew she was ready.

So we headed up there and was able to go and see her.

She looked nothing like my Aunt Norma. She was skinning and just look so sick.

I went and gave her kisses and let her know how much i loved her and that she was such an amazing person.

After i left i went out to the waiting room and was looking out the window and i just knew that my grandma was out there waiting got

My Aunt held on for 36 hours before she was ready to go and be with her family. She wasn't in any pain and she went very peacefully.

I know that my Aunt is having the time of her life up their in heaven.

She is playing Bingo with her sisters,

Kissing her husband that she hasn't seen in 15 years

and Hugging her parents.

My Aunt is and always be someone i look up to.

She stepped up and became my grandma when my grandma passes aways and i will be forever thankful for that.

My Aunt Norma wish was anatomical donations to further enhance education and research for the medican professions.

So this summer we are going to have a celebrations of life for her.

And her life was an amazing celcbration

Gallbaldder

This whole year has been hell for me and my health. I swear its just out to get me for some reason.

I have to go to the doctor each month to see how everything is coming along. They give me more medications cause they thing this will work better with everything.

Depression

Sleeping

Headaches

Stomaches

Heartburn

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I knew something more was wrong with me, i just couldnt put a pin point to it. I was talking to my co-workers one day and they told me " I swear its your gallbladder". So knowing me i went right to GOOGLE and looked it up to see what the symptoms were. 9 out of the 10 things i was having. So i called my doctor and told him what i thought was going on and i made an appointment. I couldnt get in till the next day. 

Got to the doctor and waited for an hour just to see him, if i wasnt in so much pain i would of just left. Buy the time he got to my room i was very unhappy. He asked all the questions, pushed on my belly, listened to my belly and did everything that need to be done. Then he sat down and said we have to choice we can do. Send you right the the ER, or do test on you now and then send you to the ER. Of course cry baby me started crying like a little 2 year old. I have never gone to the ER for myself, nor have i had anything like this happen to me. 

I left and called Logan right away. Logan was heading into Salt Lake to make my car payment and turned around cause he didnt want me to be alone. Thank god.

Got the the ER and all checked in, i sat down for what seems like a mintue and i got called back to the room. Hooked me up to some IV's, took my blood and then did an ultrasound on me. I had to make light of it and asked the tech if there was a baby in there, he looked at me like i was crazy and told me "Miss im sorry but there is no baby in there". I had to make my nerves go away somehow.

Then we waited for 2 hours to get the test results back. I just knew i was going to go in for surgery, i jsut knew it. I told Logan over and over again that i wasnt ready for surgery and that i didnt want to have it.

Doctor came in and said " Well looks like its not your gallbladder"...

I kept asking him are you sure? I swear it is. I have all the symptoms!

He told me that he would send me home with some pain medication and a number to call the a surgeon.

So the unhooked me and gave me pain medication and sent me on my way..

First thing the next morning i called that doctor and made the first appointment i could. Thank god i was able to get in within the hour!

I got there and had to fill out tons and tons of paper work. "When did the pain start", "Where is the pain coming from", "Does anything take the pain away". I just wanted to get back to the room to see what was going on, cause i was so tried of all these doctor appointments.

Again all the doctor did was push on my belly, check my neck, listen to my heart, everything normal in a doctor appointment. Then he said "well your gallbladder does sound a little different, So lets make an appointment to do a scan, if the scan comes back normal, then we will do a scope on you, but if it comes back adnormal you will have to have surgery." "So either way be ready to have some type of procedure and will have to go under anesthesia."

Yeah that kinda scared me a LOT.

What really sucked is that this was a Friday, so i couldnt make an appointment for the next day cause it was a saturday. I had to go all weekend in this pain that i couldnt even stand. Lucky me huh.

I was able to get the scan done on Monday afternoon. I had to eat a very heavy breakfast, and then not eat or drink from 8:00am till i was done with my scan. My appointment wasnt till noon.

The scan was kinda like a catscan. I had to lay and not move for 2 long hours. They hooked me up to an iv and gave me some iodine so they could see how my gallbladder worked with that. Then the next hour they gave me a shot of something else to watch my gallballder with that also. The tech said i should hear back from the doctor the next day. I had a pretty bad allergic reaction to the iodine, and was very ichey the whole next day.

By that time i just wanted to know what was wrong with me.

So Tuesday came around and the doctor call about noon.

He said well the first test came back normal, but the second test came back adnormal.

So the choice is yours

We can do surgery and get it out, or we can give you medications to see if it will help.

Right away i told him i just want this pain gone!!

Doctor said then lets do the surgery.

He asked me how does Thrusday sounds to have surgery? Works fine with me!!!

No food or drink after midnight and be at the hospital at 8:45am. You will be one of the first surgery i have that morning. Lets get it done and out of the way.

Sounded perfect to me..

Ive never had surgery so those two days were the worst for me. I was making myself sick, and i thought of all the worst things that could happen to me.

Thursday morning came around and we headed to the hospital.

Got checked in and headed back to Pre Op

I thought wow this is fast i didnt even have to wait at all.

I was wrong

They got me all hooked up to the Ivs, blood pressure,made me wear my cute little outfit, and the wonderful socks and legs warmers!

My oxgyen didnt want to stay up so they had to put me on oxgyen. I promise you i still looked pretty cute. Logan words. :)

I was so nervous. Like i said ive never had surgery or anything but giving birth.I didnt know how i was going to act coming out of the anesthesia, ive heard people waking up just puking their guts out and other people just acting as silly as can be (My sister). Either way i didnt want people seeing me that way.

Finally the anesthesiology and the nurse came back to get me. Ask me all the question to make sure i was the right person. Started to roll me back and then STOPPED...

The nurse said, "Uh this is the wrong patient"

You got to be kidding me.

And im trusting this hospital and the staff with my life!!

Logan said right away, "WE will NOT have our kids here"

Then about an hour later my doctor came to my room and asked if i was ready for this and said "well lets hope yours goes better then the last one"

Great make me never more scared

I said bye to my mom and Logan and headed back to the OR room. That room is creepy, all white with a HUGE light over your body. It looks just like the movies. Not very pretty.

I got moved to the OR table and right away i wanted to get up and run out of the room with my little big butt hanging out. I was so scared.

The nurse looked at me and asked if i was okay

Yes, just really nervous.

and the next thing i knew i was waking up in post op.

 

I guess while i was in the OR room the medication they gave me to knock me out,  i had a really bad allergic reaction to. I turned all red and they had to work on that first before they could do the surgery.

Then they had a hard time waking me up. The surgery only took 30 mintues.

I went in at 1:20, Got to the Post Op about 1:50 and didnt get to see my family till about 3:00. They arent sure why it took me so long to wake up.

But once i started waking up i started hyperventilating and need to have oxgyen put back on me. I wasnt able to keep my oxgyen up at a good level so they kept me a little longer.

But once i was okay they kicked me right out. I dont remember even getting dress, i guess Logan was the one that got me dresses, and wheeled me out to the car.

The rest of the day i dont really remember but thats good cause i was in a ton of pain when i finally came to.

The nest few days were hell for me. I couldnt move without crying, i couldnt do anything. I felt so worthless.

I took a week off work and im so glad i did cause i was no where ready to go back to work so fast.

Everything now is feeling pretty much normal. Im still sore to the touch, but my doctor said i will feel 100% better in 6 weeks. Im just so glad that i got it done and over with. The pain i was in, was the worst pain of my life. i kid you not, worst then child birth. Well Kinda.

Thanks everyone for all the support and prayer!